You'll Be Mine Chapter 8 - Changing
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I flew out of the kitchen as fast as I could. I wouldn’t allow myself to lose my temper and hurt her. I picked up the crystal vase on the table and threw it against the wall. It shattered into a thousand little pieces. I frantically paced the room. I needed to pull myself together and focus. I had plans for the weekend and they wouldn’t work if she was afraid of me. But she was already afraid of me; I could feel the fear radiating off of her and she was crying. I didn’t want to make her cry.
I sat down on the couch and put my head in my hands. Maybe I should just let her leave before I did something I would really regret. She wanted me though I felt that in the kitchen. I wanted to take her right there on the counter and she would have let me, too. No, I had to control myself. She wasn’t just some girl I picked up to fuck and leave, this was Bella and I had to remember that. I wanted more from her and I had to show her. What was wrong with me? Why did I keep treating her this way?
She quietly walked into the family room. I knew she didn’t eat, but I heard her clean up after herself anyway. She stood across the room and I could hear her heart beat begin to pick up it’s pace. Damn it, she was still afraid of me.
“Jasper, can you take me home?” She asked but I couldn’t let her go. I needed her here with me; I wanted her with me.
“No, Bella. I told you in the car that once you decided to stay you were mine for the weekend. How would it look if I went back on my word?”
“Come here,” I motioned for her to sit in my lap. She hesitated and I didn’t like that. “I won’t ask twice.” She slowly walked over and stood in front of me. I pulled her down into my lap and began to stroke her hair. I replaced her fear with calm and she cuddled into my chest. That was more like it. I could sit here like this all night with her. But that’s not what either of us was looking for.
She smelled incredibly sweet as I inhaled her hair. I wasn’t sure if it was because I had just fed or if I was just getting used to her, but my throat didn’t seem to burn as much anymore. I took that as just another sign that I couldn’t hurt her; I didn’t want to. She looked at me for a few seconds and then she tentatively reached out to touch my face. I felt her uncertainty and I was sure she was afraid I was going to snap. She was trembling as her fingertip lightly traced my jaw line and moved ever so softly to my lips. I could feel her beginning to relax even further and her close proximity had a rather calming effect on me as well. That was strange; no one had ever been able to calm me down. Because of my gift it was nearly impossible for me to get a moments peace; with always having to feel everyone else’s emotions I was always on edge.
“You’re eyes,” she whispered. “They’re back to being gold. They are beautiful.”
She noticed. “I’m trying for you Bella.” I kept my word and I only hunted animals since returning to Forks, and as hard as that was for me I did it for her. I knew who I was, but every time a dark thought or impulse crossed my mind I saw her face and it made me want to be better. I shook it off…that was not going to happen. I ran my fingers through her hair and pulled her closer to me. She was relentless; her gorgeous brown eyes stared deep into mine and I swore she saw right through me. I wanted her to.
“You’re sad.” She said.
“You’re not an empath.” But, God help me she was right.
“I want to help you.” And for the first time I felt something other than fear or lust coming from her; God help her because she was falling in love with me. Was that what I wanted? Was that what I had been searching for?
I took her face between my hands and whispered, “You can’t help me.” I pressed my mouth to hers and in that moment that our lips made contact I felt a deep connection. I didn’t just want her body. I craved everything that was Bella. The need to make her mine was overwhelming. I could feel the love radiating off of her and I didn’t know what to do with it. I didn’t deserve it. “Bella, I can’t…” I didn’t mean to say that out loud and that was just more proof of what she was doing to me. I was no longer in control of my feelings and that had never happened before.
“You can’t what?” She pulled away from my lips and stared desperately into my eyes.
“Keep my hands off of you.” I pulled her lips back to mine and kissed her with more power this time forcing my tongue into the sweet depths of her mouth. I wanted her taste to linger on my tongue and not just the taste of her mouth, no; I wanted to sample her whole body. I placed her head on the arm rest and positioned her across my lap because I needed better access. I could put those thoughts of love out of my head because I was a fucking empath, and I wasn’t going to let her feelings cloud mine. I knew what I wanted. I quickly unbuttoned her jeans and snaked my hand down her panties. The smell of her arousal was so strong and she was already so wet when I rubbed my finger inside her slit.
My cock twitched as she moaned my name. She bucked her hips against my hand and I could feel her need beginning to take her over.
“You’ve been thinking about what I did to you the other night? Haven’t you?”
Her eyes were squeezed shut as she nodded in response.
“That’s why your pussy is dripping for me.” I pushed my fingers deeper into her core and began to thrust in and out. She was so warm and tight and I knew that soon just having my fingers inside of her wasn’t going to be enough for either of us. I continued to play her like a fine instrument pushing in and out with my fingers as my thumb massaged her clit. She was so close but I couldn’t let what happened in the kitchen go. She needed to learn that when she was with me she could only think of me.
“Jas…please don’t stop.” I could feel her muscles clenching and her body was begging for release.
“Only I can make you feel this way.” I said as I rapidly moved my fingers inside her tight little body.
“Oh…that feels so good…” She was teetering on the verge of release.
“Can Edward do this for you?” I asked.
She shook her head but I wanted to hear the words.
“Fucking answer me, Bella. Can Edward make you cum with his fingers?”
“No,” she moaned. “Only you.”
I abruptly stopped my movements and pulled my fingers out of her. “That’s why you should never compare me to him and for doing that I won’t let you release.”
Her eyes flew open and I felt her shock. “Jasper, please.”
“I think you should go to bed now.” I helped her up off my lap.
“No, I want to be with you.” She pleaded and I was hit with a huge wave of her frustration.
“Why because I’m a substitute for him?” I was getting angry. I just wanted her to do what I told her to do.
“Are you using me to get what he won’t give you?”
“What the hell is wrong with you? You pursued me. I didn’t lead you on.” Now she was angry.
“No, but I know you want me.” I reminded her.
“I’m not a toy that you can control and I won’t let you treat me that way.” Oh, my little kitten had a temper. Very cute, but I could stop this sudden surge of confidence.
I quickly stood up and closed the space between us. She took a step back in retreat. I smirked. Where was my fierce kitten now?
She opened her mouth to speak, but I put my finger over her lips. “Go to bed and think about me, and only me.”
She glared at me. Really? I growled back. Her eyes widened in shock and she hastily turned and ran upstairs. I laughed at her…as if she could out run me.
I walked back to the couch and flopped down. What was this girl doing to me? One minute I felt completely in control and the next minute I became dominant with her and had absofuckinglutely no control over my actions.
I heard her as she got ready for bed and then I heard the rustling of sheets as she got comfortable. This weekend was not starting out as I had planned. I sure as fuck wasn’t expecting her to ever compare me to Edward. The thought of her comparing me to him made my stomach turn, if that’s even possible for vampires.
Why did that thought make me feel sick? Why should I care if she compared me to Edward? I was nothing like him, nor did I ever want to be like him. As I was mulling over my thoughts I heard her moan. Now what could she be doing up there? Only one way to find out.
I ran up the stairs and to Edward’s bedroom door. I opened it quietly and what I saw was enough to make my unbeating heart beat frantically out of my chest. There in the bed was my Bella pleasuring herself. My cock was so fucking hard watching her.
I walked up to the bed, “Would you like some help with that darlin?”
She jumped and quickly removed her hands. “What are you doing in here, Jasper? Just go away and leave me alone.”
“You don’t really want me to leave. You secretly want me to give you all the pleasure that you know I am capable of.”
She turned away from me. I removed my shirt and pants leaving myself in only my boxers and climbed into bed with her. She tried to scoot away from me, but I wasn’t having that. I wrapped my arm around her waist and pulled her against me. I ground my erection into her and she gasped.
“Do you see what you do to me?”
She was obviously still angry with me. She wouldn’t even talk to me now.
“Answer me Bella.”
“Yes, Jasper. Yes, okay. Is that what you want to hear? I know what I do to you, I can feel it.”
I pressed my lips to her neck and began placing open mouthed kisses all along her neck and jaw. I pushed her shirt up and ran my hand up and down her rib cage and stomach. “Jasper, please.”
“Please what Bella? Tell me what you want.”
She turned over to face me and inched closer to me. She pressed her lips to mine and kissed me softly. I could feel her love for me in that kiss. I pressed my lips to hers harder and she moaned into my mouth.
I pushed my tongue into her mouth and explored it hungrily. I broke away from the kiss and quickly pulled her shirt and shorts off. I moved her to lie on her back and I climbed on top of her. I began kissing down her neck and continued until I reached her breasts.
I unclasped her bra and flung it on the floor. She wanted me as much as I wanted her. I could feel her desire, lust, want, and need rolling off of her in giant waves and they were crashing into me. I attacked her breasts. I licked, sucked, and nibbled on her pert nipples.
She arched her back into me and moaned my name. I trailed my kisses down her flat toned stomach and ripped her panties away from her body. She gasped at my suddenness, but didn’t stop me. I continued my journey until I reached her beautiful pussy.
I inhaled deeply and her scent nearly drove me wild. I looked up at her and she had her eyes half closed. I licked up her slit and her eyes flew open. I smirked and dove in. I drove my tongue into her wet, tight pussy and lapped up her juices.
She was writhing under me so I grabbed her hips to keep her still. I sucked her clit into my mouth and pushed two fingers into her waiting core. She was panting and moaning out my name and it was the most beautiful sound in the world.
“Please what? What do you want Bella?”
“I want to feel you inside me.”
“Are you sure that’s what you really want?”
“Yes Jasper, that is what I really want.” I quickly removed my boxers and climbed up her body and positioned myself at her entrance.
“This is going to hurt a little.” I pushed into her hot, wet core slowly and she squeezed her eyes shut. I continued pushing forward as slow as humanly possible until I reached her barrier. I grabbed her left hand in mine and she opened her eyes to look at me.
I pressed my lips to hers and plunged my tongue into her mouth at the same time I thrust forward until I was fully sheathed. She cried out with her pain and I quickly sent her a large wave of lust. I opened my eyes and saw the tears rolling down her cheeks.
I wiped them away with my thumbs and began moving in and out of her slowly. She released my hand and wrapped her arms around me and held me close.
I began moving a little faster and she wrapped her legs around my waist and drew me in even closer. I began thrusting even faster and harder and she kept moaning my name over and over. I could feel her orgasm approaching as I moved my hand between us and pinched her clit.
Her walls clenched around me like a vice and I thrust a few more times before I spilled my seed inside her. We screamed out each others’ names. I collapsed on top of her and she wrapped her arms around me. I moved to lie on the side of her and she snuggled into my side.
“Thank you, Jasper. That was amazing.”
“I should be the one thanking you.”
I could feel her love for me once more and the thought of her loving me scared the shit out of me. I was not good for her. I knew that I was no good for her, but why does the thought of her being with Edward make me seethe with anger?
He doesn’t deserve her. She snuggled even closer, if that was possible and I wrapped my arms around her and held her close. I could hear her breathing even out and deepen. She was sleeping and it felt so right having her in my arms.
She began to stir around three in the morning and her hand brushed up against my cock. I groaned and pulled her on top of me. Her eyes fluttered opened and she smiled at me. I crushed my lips to hers and she moaned into my mouth.
I licked her bottom lip and she quickly allowed me access to explore the warm sweetness of her mouth. She ground her wet core onto my cock and I couldn’t stop the growl that formed in my chest.
I quickly flipped her over onto her back and slowly pushed my aching member into her warm, wet pussy. “Oh Jasper.” Oh yes, I would make her scream my name a lot this weekend.
I thrust into her slowly feeding off of our desire. I could feel the love she had for me yet again and I tried not to think about it, but being connected with her as I was now, wasn’t making it easy to ignore.
I began thrusting faster and she wrapped her legs around my waist taking me in deeper. “Oh Bella, you feel so good. Cum with me darlin.”
Her muscles clenched around my length and I thrust even faster and harder. I could feel my orgasm approaching so I reached down and pinched her clit and she screamed, “Jasper.”
“Fuck, Bella.” I held completely still as I shot my seed deep into her waiting core. I collapsed on top of her and she wrapped her arms around my neck. I eventually rolled off her and pulled her into my arms.
She sighed and I could feel how happy, content, and satisfied she was. I couldn’t help but think that I did that. I was the one that was satisfying her. I was giving her exactly what she wanted, what she would always want from me.
I opened my eyes and found that I was lying on the forest floor. I tried to get into a seated position but I felt a sharp pain at the base of my skull. A pain? That was strange, but what was even more disturbing was that I had felt like I just woke up. Where was I? Texas, but how many days had I been here? Was I in the forest for hours or days? I didn’t know.
The last thing I remembered was heading to Peter’s house from the airport, but I stopped in the woods bordering his house to hunt and that was it. I didn’t remember what had happened to me. I stood up and took in my surroundings. I put my hand to my burning throat; obviously I hadn’t hunted. I was so thirsty. I smelled a pair of deer near by, but that’s not what I wanted. I put my hand to my mouth as the venom began to pool when I remembered the fantastic taste of what I really craved.
I took off running toward the nearby town. It was dark now and I knew I could find what I needed. As I ran I tried to block the images of Carlisle, Esme and my sweet Bella. They would be so disappointed, but I could no longer deny myself. It wasn’t my fault. I couldn’t fight it any longer; it was instinctual.
I stopped running as soon as I hit the forest’s edge. I locked in on what I wanted. She was just coming out of the local coffee shop; all alone. Silly girl, didn’t she know predators like me lurked in the woods? I took in her scent and again the venom coated my mouth. I was salivating at the memory of biting into a human neck and letting the blood flow into my mouth. She didn’t smell as good as my girl, but than again who did. No, but this fragile little human would have to do for now. My body ached and my throat was so dry. I could almost taste her. I didn’t know what I would enjoy more; drinking from her or the struggle she would put up.
I was just about to approach her when I heard him come from behind me. I snapped my head around and witnessed his piercing red eyes, and judging from his thoughts he was not happy to see me. This is my territory, Cullen.
“What the fuck do you want?” I growled.
***Oh no…now what?
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