The Vibration of Love - Chapter 20 : All Good Things
My eyes were filled with tears, and my head was pounding. Obviously Bella Swan had been crying. I ran my hand over the stone. I was afraid to ask who this marker was for because I was sure I knew the answer.
“He was the human baby?” I whispered looking at Edward.
He nodded, his face contorted with pain.
I put my hand on my stomach. “What about the other baby? Is she OK?”
He put his hand on mine. “Yes, for now, you are both OK.”
Edward looked at the stone, and my eyes followed his.
“The last time that she had an ultrasound, Bella jokingly referred to the babies as David and Goliath because the human baby looked so tiny compared to the vampire baby. That nickname stuck, and we started referring to him as David. We chose his middle name for his father.”
I turned to Edward and let him hold me while I sobbed. If this baby had survived, it would have belonged to Edward and his Bella; but right now, the intensity of the pain was the same as if he had been my child.
After several minutes, I whispered, “Thank you for choosing Robert as his middle name. I know that must have been hard for you. You told Bella what happened?”
He nodded. “After David died, I told her everything.”
“How did she react?”
“She was amazingly calm. She said she felt like some part of her already knew. His name was her idea.”
I looked around us. We were in a simple, yet stunningly beautiful garden. “It’s so peaceful here. Did Esme do this?”
He nodded. “Rose and Alice helped.”
“I’ll have to thank them.”
I tried to stand, but I was too weak.
“Edward, I feel awful.”
“I know. She insisted on coming out here. Let me bring you back inside. I’m sure Carlisle will want to talk to you.”
He picked me up and ran back to the house. When we got inside, he laid me on the couch and covered me with a blanket. I heard him say something that sounded like he was mumbling but realized he was speaking at the “speed of vampire” to his family who had entered the room.
Esme walked over and sat next to me on the edge of the couch. “We are so sorry,” she said, with such sadness that I thought she might actually cry.
“Thank you for creating that serene and beautiful garden,” I said.
“You are so welcome,” she said as she squeezed my hand.
Carlisle stood behind her. “Bella, how do you feel?”
“In this reality or the other one?” I asked.
“Both,” he said smiling.
“I have this big emotional drama going on in my other reality that has nothing to do with the pregnancy, so emotionally I’m a mess. But physically, I’m still OK. As for this reality, I’m really grateful that I know my stay in this body is temporary because I can’t wait to get the hell out of here! I feel awful. I’m weak. Everything aches, and I’m craving…” I looked at Carlisle and then at Edward.
“Holy shit!” I said.
“It’s the baby,” Edward said. “Our Bella was craving blood too.”
“Your Bella has had a few years to get used to being around vampires and the idea of drinking blood. Plus she can not wait to be turned. I don’t think I can make myself drink blood.” I shuddered.
“Would you be willing to try?” Carlisle asked.
“Bella actually likes it,” Edward said.
“Isn’t there another option? Doesn’t she still need human food and water? Come on! The human body is over seventy-five percent water!”
“Blood seems to be the only thing that keeps her strength up,” Carlisle said.
“You’ll feel better afterward,” Edward added.
“You two sound like you’ve been rehearsing this,” I told them.
“We’ve had a lot of practice convincing our Bella,” Carlisle said with a smile.
I took a deep breath. “OK, just give me a spoonful.”
There was a blur, and Carlisle was back with a tablespoon sized medicine cup with red liquid. He handed it to me.
All of the other vampires, except Edward, suddenly disappeared; apparently they had decided it would be prudent to skip watching the human drinking blood for the first time.
“I can not believe I’m doing this.” I shut my eyes, held my nose, and threw it back like I was doing a shot of tequila. I expected to immediately throw it back up, but I had never been more stunned when I realized my body wanted more.
“Oh my God! This is even more bizarre than this whole reality shifting thing. That actually tasted good. Wow! I understand now why you guys crave it so much. OK, bring it on.”
They both laughed and Carlisle reappeared with a cup full of blood.
I took the cup and was about to sip from it when I asked, “Is this human blood?”
“But it’s from a blood bank, right?”
They both smiled. “Yes, Carlisle is pulling strings to keep us supplied.”
“Which reminds me,” said Carlisle, “our supply is getting low, so I have to go pull a few more of those strings.” He smiled and headed upstairs to his office.
As I sipped from the cup, I heard a voice say, “Hello Bella Jordan.”
I looked at Edward. “Did you hear that?”
“Hear what?” He asked.
“Wait a minute. Think something without speaking,” I said.
He looked at me, and I heard his thoughts say, “Thank you for your willingness to try the blood.”
“You’re welcome,” I said. “I just started being able to hear thoughts again. Could your Bella hear them?”
He shook his head.
“It’s because of her shield,” I said.
He looked at me and communicated with his thoughts, “What do you mean by ‘her shield?’”
Before I could answer, I heard the voice I had heard earlier say,
“You can hear thoughts now because my body was asleep. It just woke up.”
“Oh my God!” I gasped. “Edward, I think the baby is talking to me!”
“Yes, I’m talking to you. Tell my father I love him,” the baby said.
“Edward, your daughter told me to tell you that she loves you,” I said, looking at him with tear filled eyes.
He looked completely stunned. His thoughts were racing.
“If there was a thought in there I was supposed to catch, I didn’t,” I said.
“I am having a hard time formulating a coherent thought,” he said.
“How about, “’Tell her I love her too?’” I suggested.
“Can she hear me?”
“Yes, of course I can hear him,” she said.
I laughed, “She said, “Yes, of course.”
“This is incredible!” He knelt down next to my stomach. “Hello Renesmee. I love you too.”
“I know you do. And you love my mother.”
I repeated to Edward what I had heard her say.
He stared at me. “Why can’t I hear her?”
“My mother’s body blocks my thoughts.”
I repeated what Renesmee had said. “That’s what I meant about your Bella’s shield. It was described in the last book.”
“How is your mother’s body blocking me from hearing your thoughts?” He asked.
“Her body vibrates at a frequency that blocks telepathic communication,” she replied.
I told Edward what I had heard her say.
“Renesmee, I’m not sure how to ask this without offending you, but, ah, you’re a fetus. How is it that you sound so knowledgeable and mature?” I asked her.
“Only my body is a fetus. What you are hearing are the thoughts of my consciousness or what some refer to as a soul.”
I repeated what she said for Edward’s benefit.
“Renesmee, is there anyway for Edward to hear you also?” I asked.
“Yes, Stephen proposed using quartz to shield my father from the emotional frequencies generated by your husband. Quartz can also be used to destabilize what you referred to as my mother’s shield.”
“Edward, do you have any quartz?” I asked.
“Yes, Stephen is experimenting with it,” he replied.
I told him what Renesmee had said.
Edward disappeared and reappeared in under a second. He set two baseball-sized crystals on the table beside the couch.
I started to reach for them and heard,
I retracted my hand.
“You must only touch one crystal. Do not touch both.”
I picked up a crystal.
“Hello father,” Renesmee said.
Edward gasped. “I can hear you Renesmee.”
“I know,” she said.
“How do you know who I am?” I asked.
“Before you entered into your physical existence, you agreed to help my parents and me. Your consciousness vibrates in such a way that you can hear my thoughts and my father can hear yours. My mother’s consciousness and her body are out of alignment since her consciousness was created to be a vampire. This misalignment causes her human body to vibrate at a frequency that does not allow me to communicate with her.
I gasped and tears came to my eyes. “Oh my God! Edward! You and Bella were always meant to be together!”
“Yes, this is correct. It is their destiny. They are soul mates.”
“Edward, do you realize what she is telling you? You can stop feeling guilty about turning Bella!” I said.
Edward’s thoughts were a whirling dervish that I could not follow.
“Renesmee, where is your mother’s consciousness right now?” I asked her.
“In the space between all that is,” she replied, rather cryptically.
Edward and I looked at each other. I could tell by his expression that even his vampire brain had no idea what she meant.
“Renesmee, we don’t know what you mean,” I said.
“That is because you do not remember being in the space between all that is. You forgot about it when you were born. Some of your religions name it ‘heaven.’ Others refer to it as ‘The Other Side.’” She said.
Edward looked panicked. “Are you saying she is dead?” He asked.
“There is no such thing as death, Father. Human bodies’ energy changes over time until the body no longer holds its original form. However, the consciousness or the soul continues forever.
My mother’s consciousness is residing in the space where all souls reside after their body no longer holds their true being. It is the same space where souls reside before they are reborn. My mother will not experience the trauma that you call the ‘newborn phase,’ Father, because of the time she has spent away from her human body preparing her soul to become a vampire.”
“Renesmee, you said earlier that I agreed to help your parents before I was born. What did you mean by that?” I asked her.
“My mother and father chose their destiny before they were born into this life. Their souls have traveled together for a long time in many previous lives, and they learned all that was needed to advance to this path.”
“Wait, so are you saying that becoming a vampire is like becoming enlightened?” I asked.
Edward laughed out loud.
“This is not true of all souls who are vampires. A few very advanced souls such as my parents and my father’s family have chosen this path as their destiny. It is through great adversity in one’s physical being and circumstances that one’s soul advances. My father believes that he is soulless, but it is exactly the opposite. He is a very advanced soul. This is why I chose him as my father. It is also why you agreed to help him.”
“Besides helping you communicate with him right now, how did I help him?” I asked.
“We can not advance to our next level of consciousness until we fully embrace and integrate all aspects of our being including the light, the dark, the physical and emotional parts of ourselves. You provided circumstances, which allowed my father to make peace with the darker parts of himself. He also now knows that he can make love to my mother without fear. There can be no true union of souls if fear is present.”
I looked at Edward and could not read his thoughts.
“Renesmee, are you still awake? I can not hear your father’s thoughts.”
“I am here. He is too stunned to have any thoughts,” she replied.
Edward looked at me and smiled. “That is certainly true. I don’t know what to think about all of this. It changes everything I believed about my existence.”
“It is part of your destiny to help other vampires understand that they can rise above their physical nature to experience a more fulfilled existence. Your family has learned how to love, and being in alignment with the vibration of love is a state which all beings aspire to exist,” she said.
Edward’s thoughts alternated between what sounded like random chaos and complete silence.
“Renesmee, do you know if both the children I am carrying in my other reality are human?” I asked her.
“Yes, they are human. Vampires can not exist in your reality,” she replied.
“Oh, thank God,” I sobbed. I looked at Edward, and he smiled.
“The body of the boy my mother named David did not yet have a consciousness. His body was not supposed to be created in this reality. This is why his body died. His spirit is waiting to enter the body being created for him within you.”
“Renesmee, thank you.” I whispered.
“You are welcome.
Father, in order to prevent Bella Jordan from returning to this reality, you must wear a piece of quartz crystal and never remove it until Mother has completed the change and is a vampire. It is crucial that Bella Jordan not return while Mother is making the change.”
“Alice!” He called.
She appeared in a blur.
His thoughts and words were too fast for my non-vampire brain to follow. But when Alice disappeared and then reappeared with a piece of quartz on a long heavy chain and handed it to Edward, it was easy to imply their earlier conversation.
He slipped it over his head and underneath his shirt.
“Bella Jordan, your purpose for being in this reality has been fulfilled. When you pick up both crystals, your consciousness will return to your reality,” Renesmee said.
“Edward, would you ask your family to come here so I can say good-bye?”
He called their names. When they appeared, he used ‘vampire speak’ to rapidly fill them in on what had transpired with Renesmee.
“Bella! Wait, there’s something you have to see first,” Alice said as she flew from the room. She was back a moment later with a laptop. She typed something and turned it toward me.
The screen showed a picture of the other Bella and Rob holding hands and gazing at each other with a look that I recognized. The caption read, “Robert Pattinson and Bella Jordan are engaged. The couple plan to be wed in the Spring at the Jordan family’s resort, the Cielo.”
I laughed. “Excellent! Thank you, Alice. I’m so happy for them!”
I looked around the room at Edward’s family. “Renesmee told us that you are all very advanced souls. I know some of you find that hard to believe,” I said, smiling at Edward, “so I will let her explain it to you. But I want you to know that I believe her. You all have beautiful souls.”
Edward took my hand and looked into my eyes. “Thank you is not strong enough. I don’t know what to say.” He paused, “Renesmee, would it be alright with you if we gave you the middle name of Jordan?”
I smiled through my tears again.
“Yes, Father that name is my destiny,” she replied.
Edward kissed my cheek. “Good-bye Bella.”
He started to put the other crystal in my hand, when Renesmee said,
“Wait. The crystals will allow you to choose what time you return to in your reality.”
“What do you mean?” I asked.
“You may choose to return to a time you already experienced or skip ahead to the future or return at the exact moment you left,” she replied.
“Because time is relative,” I smiled.
“Yes,” she said.
“How do I choose the time?”
“Concentrate on it and set your intention to return at that time. Your vibration will align itself to that time period. Choose well. Remember, those experiences that you found most challenging were circumstances that you chose as part of this life’s journey. It was the most difficult of those that most advanced your soul.”
I knew she was right. I also knew the one lesson I could live without.
“Thank you Renesmee Jordan Cullen,” I said silently.
“You are welcome,” I heard in reply.
“I’m ready, Edward.”
He smiled and placed the crystals in my hands. I shut my eyes. This time the room did not spin. I simply was in the Cullen’s living room in one breath, and in the next breath, I was stepping into the limo after my appointment with Margaret.
Rob slid in next to me. I smiled, looked up at the overhead light, unscrewed the fixture and pulled it out of the ceiling. Embedded in the wiring was a tiny camera. I pulled it out as Rob stared at me.
“How did you know that was there?” He asked.
I smiled. It’s a long story.
An Epilogue is coming!
What I will share with you in the following paragraphs is based on my personal experience and is in no way intended to imply that I think you should believe anything that I believe. I am sharing this because it relates to the previous chapter.
This chapter was somewhat autobiographical and very cathartic. My seven-year-old son was a twin, but his brother died in utero. The story about David and Goliath was taken from the pages of my life. My sons had twin-to-twin transfusion, and David had intrauterine growth retardation. Basically it meant that one baby was getting too much fluid and the other was not getting enough. So, on the ultrasound, one baby looked huge compared to the other.
My husband and I flew to Tampa, Florida and were part of a clinical trial for intrauterine surgery that was only done by a handful of surgeons in the world. When the surgery was over, we were told we had a miracle, and that both babies survived. However, at a checkup, two weeks later, David did not have a heartbeat. It was truly the most agonizing moment of my life, and for the first time in my life, I lost faith.
The trauma that my son and I went through was so extensive, that at the time, one of my friends told me that if the “Lifetime” television network did a movie about me, no one would believe it. So someday, I’ll write a book about it.
But what I’ll share with you now is that what eventually restored my faith was reading about the concept that some people believe we plan our lives before we come here and that the most difficult mountains we climb are the ones that most advance our souls. I also read and have come to believe that we plan some of our major life lessons before we come here, partnering with other souls to make sure those lessons happen. The implication is that we not only have soul mates, but we have a soul team. I find this very comforting.
So I dedicate this chapter to my son, David Gabriel, who I choose to believe is a member of my soul team that helped me to climb a mountain I had to climb to advance my soul to the next level. Who knows, maybe in the next life, I’ll be reborn as a vampire.
On to the Epilogue…
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