Innocence Lost Chapter 3
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I woke up extremely tired and sore. My body ached in places that I didn't even know could hurt. My scalp even hurt, but that was because Edward seemed to have a fondness for pulling my hair. I glanced down at my arms and noticed the bruises that covered them. They were in the shape of Edward's fingers. I had a feeling my entire body was going to be covered in these blotches.
I knew why I was sore, and I expected some discomfort, but I think we may have overdone it. Edward woke me up several times throughout the night, and each time he was more ready than the last. He said that I had created a monster, when I unleashed his physical side. He was different after we made love, and I didn't expect him to be as aggressive as he had become, but a part of me liked that Edward. The Edward who wasn't so careful with me. I knew, now that the sun was up and the evening we had shared was over, things would go back to normal, especially once he saw my bruise-covered body.
I slowly got into a seated position. Ouch! That hurt!
“Well,” I heard his voice from the doorway. He was as gorgeous as ever. Not a hair out of place, and his clothes were perfectly pressed and neat. As usual, I looked like a dish rag next to him.
I smiled at him. I was sure I even blushed a bit, after thinking about the things we had done last night.
He walked toward me. “It looks as if my human is finally awake.”
“Good morning,” I smiled.
He sat down on the bed next to me and tilted my chin up. He ran his eyes over my face and then he pulled the covers off of me, exposing my naked body to him. “Edward?” I tried to pull the covers from him, but it was no use.
“Don't tell me you're embarrassed, after the things you let me do to you last night?” He continued to inspect my body. I knew he was taking in every bruise and scratch. It would only be a matter of seconds before he started freaking out and blaming himself.
When he was finished looking me over, he placed the comforter back over my body. He didn't say anything.
“Edward,” I said, as I took his hand. “It's no big deal. I bruise easily. You know that.”
He smirked the most deliciously evil smile, and it kind of confused me. “I'm just wondering when we can play again?”
“What?” He wasn't going to apologize?
“Bella, you had to expect the bruises. You play with a vampire and you'll get hurt. I went easy on you last night. Can you imagine what you'll look like when I really let go?”
“Edward?” I said. “What has gotten into you?”
He laughed. “I could ask you the same thing, but we already know the answer.”
Okay, now he was just being vulgar.
“I need to go for a hunt,” he smiled. “It seems as though you're not the only one our activities have taken a toll on.”
“Is that why your eyes are still so black? And your mood is different?”
“My eyes are black because I'm thirsty, and after being so close to you, it's getting harder to control that thirst. As for my mood, I don't know what you mean?”
“You've been different since we made love,” I admitted.
“Bella,” he said, as he ran his finger up my bare arm and leaned in close to my face. His close proximity made my head spin. I suddenly had the urge to touch him. “You've changed me. I've never felt anything more amazing than being with you last night.”
I blushed, because looking at his perfect face made me forget what we were even talking about. “Are you dazzling me?” I asked.
He brushed his lips against mine. “How else will I get what I want?”
You could just ask.
I leaned in and kissed him. My need for him increased, and suddenly I wanted him to do all of the things that he had done to me the night before. He indulged me for a few seconds, and then pulled away.
He shook his head, “I have to hunt,” I could see the pain in his face. His throat was on fire, and he was struggling to swallow back the venom that began to pool in his mouth. “Besides, your body really couldn't handle me now.”
He got up and said, “There's breakfast in the kitchen. You should eat and shower. I'll be back soon.”
“Okay,” I smiled. “Don't be long.”
He walked to the window, turned and gave me a quick smile, and then took off with incredible speed. I laughed, but then realized that he wasn't exactly himself. He had made me forget that for a few minutes. I hoped that it was just because he had experienced something completely new, and he was dealing with our new intimacy. Maybe after he hunted he would feel better.
I had decided to cut my trip short with Carlisle and Esme, and come home early. I just wasn't into it, and I knew I was dragging them down with me. I could feel it. They tried so hard to make me happy, but it really wasn't any use. I knew things weren't always perfect with me and Alice, but we were compatible. We got along well and we kept the same interests. I did love her, but just not as passionately as I should have. I tried, but I never really felt it. We didn't have that connection that you see in the movies or you read in books. I never felt for Alice what Carlisle feels for Esme, or what Emmett feels for Rosalie. I just figured people love on different levels, and what Alice and I had was meant for us. I got used to believing that was all there was for me. She told me she was my mate, and I accepted that. She brought me here to the Cullens, and showed me a better life. I would have been destroyed long ago, if not for Alice. So, when she upped and left without a proper explanation, I was pissed. I was willing to stay with her despite my feelings, but she didn't want to do the same for me. Her stupid visions were always clouding things and making her cryptic. How the hell was I supposed to make things right, if I didn't know what I was supposed to be fixing or avoiding?
I was tired of analyzing it. She walked out and it was over. In a way, that may have been a blessing. Maybe by her leaving, I could find the correct path that my life was supposed to take.
I made my way into the foyer and heard Bella upstairs in the bathroom. I could smell from her soap and shampoo, that she had just finished showering. She always smelled so good, especially when she was freshly washed. The heat from the shower enhanced her natural scent. She was so clean and fresh. I had always noticed that before, but I never gave it much thought until just this second. I kind of liked it.
I ran up the steps and tried to make it to my room, before she saw me. I didn't want to startle her, especially because she was in the house alone. Edward must have gone hunting. I didn't make it to my room, but instead passed the bathroom just as she was coming out, in nothing more than an oversized towel. She wasn't aware that I was standing right behind her, but I needed to make my presence known.
I cleared my throat and she whipped around, actually pretty fast for a human, and stumbled right into my arms. She was so soft.
“Jasper,” she blushed. I felt her embarrassment over her slip up.
“I'm sorry, Bella,” I said. “I didn't mean to scare you. I was trying to get to my room before you came out of the bathroom.”
“It's okay,” she smiled. “I just didn't expect anyone to be here.”
I let go of her arm and took a step back. I wanted to give her some space. I never picked up any fear coming from her when I was around, but I never wanted to give her a chance to be afraid of me. My eyes unconsciously traveled down her towel-clad body, and I felt her embarrassment spike.
“I'm sorry,” I said as I looked away, but I noticed the bruises on her arms and shoulders.
“It's okay,” she said, as she started to walk back to Edward's room.
“Wait,” I held out my hand and stepped closer to her. “What happened to you?”
“What do you mean?” I felt her confusion.
“Your arms are covered in bruises that look like...” Oh, now I see.
She bit her bottom lip and a look of worry crossed her face.
“Never mind,” I said with a smirk. Go Edward!
She smiled, and I felt the relief she was experiencing over not having to explain to me what had happened.
“I should let you get dressed,” I said.
“Jasper,” she said. “How are you?”
“I'm fine,” I started to walk down the hall.
“You're not,” she said in almost a whisper. “You're hurting.”
I turned and looked at her for a moment. No one ever monitored my emotions.
“Is there anything I can do?” she asked, and I felt how sincere she was. “I mean, if you want someone to talk to, I could listen.”
“Thanks, Bella,” I smiled. “I appreciate that, but I'm just not ready to discuss what happened.”
“Well, if you change your mind,” she said. “I could be your friend.”
She wanted to be my friend? Even after I tried to kill her? Such an intriguing individual.
“That's very kind of you, Bella,” I said. “Especially after what we went through last September.”
“Jasper,” she said, and I felt her anxiety over the topic. I'd be anxious too, if I were human and I was standing face to face with the vampire who tried to drain me. “I never blamed you for what happened. It was natural.”
“Natural?” I said. “For who?”
“For you, silly,” she laughed. “You're a vampire and I cut my finger in front of you.”
“The others didn't want to drain you, Bella,” I reminded her.
“The others didn't have trouble controlling their blood lust. It's not your fault that you couldn't.”
“You are so understanding,” I said. “I don't deserve that.”
“See, that's the problem,” she said. “You don't think you are worthy of much. You deserve so much more.”
Before I had time to respond to what she was saying, Edward came flying into the hallway and stood in between Bella and I. He was furious, but for what I wasn't sure.
“What are you doing here?” He hissed.
“I decided to come home early,” I said. I looked into his eyes, but something was different. I knew he had just hunted, I could smell the animal blood, but his eyes were so dark. He looked thirsty. “What's wrong with you?”
“What's wrong with me? I come home and find you here with my half-naked girlfriend. What the fuck do you think is wrong with me?”
“Edward?” Bella said. He rarely ever used language like that, and I was sure never in front of Bella.
He turned and glared at her. “Go get dressed.” He commanded, as he pointed to his room.
“I don't understand,” she said. “Why are you so upset?”
“I said, Go. Get. Dressed.” He yelled, practically in her face.
She shrieked away from him, and ran to the bedroom with her head down. I felt her shock and fear.
He stared at me and I felt his fury. I replaced it with calm, but it took more of my power than usual to relax him.
“What is wrong with you?” I asked, once I had him under control. “Why did you yell at her?”
“She's parading around the house naked. I have a right to protect what's mine.”
“What's yours? She not an object; she's a person, with feelings,” I reminded him. “You scared and embarrassed her.”
“She didn't seem so embarrassed to be standing here in a towel, talking to you.” I felt his jealousy.
“She didn't even know I was here. I was trying to get to my room before she came out, but I passed the door as she was leaving the bathroom. I didn't see anything.”
“Did you want to?” he asked.
“No,” I said. “She was headed back to your room, when I asked her about the bruises on her arms.”
“That's none of your business,” he growled.
“I realize that,” I said. “But your emotions are very dark and convoluted right now. Maybe you should distance yourself from Bella. Something isn't right.”
“Don't analyze me,” he said. “She's not your responsibility. I'll take care of her.”
“Edward,” I warned. “Give her some time. Give yourself some time to calm down. You overreacted and took it out on us.” I sent him another wave of calmness.
He took a deep breath and slowly exhaled. “You're right, Jazz,” he said, and I felt his emotions shift in a more positive direction. “I've just been on edge today.”
“Are you sure you are okay?” I tried to get a lock on what he was feeling, but I couldn't break through. That only happened when I encountered the most darkest of newborns. The ones that we immediately destroyed, because we knew they were nothing but trouble.
“Jazz,” he said as he headed for his room. “The next time you find Bella coming out of the shower; could you at least be enough of a gentleman to give her some privacy?”
He opened the door without knocking, entered, and then quickly slammed it shut. I heard her heart rate increase. I pushed some relaxing vibes their way, and hoped it would be enough to snap Edward out of whatever this was. His emotions had shifted so quickly, it was as if they weren't his at all. If I hadn't been staring into his eyes, I wouldn't have believed they were coming from him. This was not the same vampire that I had left, less than twenty-four hours ago. And, I was afraid Bella was going to catch the brunt of his wrath.
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