A Reason to Exist Chapter 11

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Of course I would help Bella. What choice did I have? She may not have considered me her mate, and she may have fallen in love with Jasper, but I was ultimately the reason she was with Victoria. If I never would have brought her into my world, she would be safe and secure. She would be living a normal life, free of me and Jasper.

Who was I kidding?

She was destined to be with our kind. She couldn't stay away from us, no matter how hard I tried to keep her safe, she always found a way to be with us. But at what cost? Even if I could successfully retrieve her, she was losing her mind. How would she ever come back from that? I never wanted this life for her.

“Stop feeling so negative,” Jasper said. “If you can't do this, I'll go in your place.”

“You'd love that,” I said. “Ride in on your white horse and save the princess from the evil witch.”

“Edward,” Carlisle said. “Now is not the time for this.”

We stopped about ten miles from where Victoria had Bella. We couldn't pick up her heartbeat or scent yet, but that meant that Victoria couldn't sense us either. She had Bella at an abandoned lake house that she had been hiding out in for the past couple of weeks.

I looked at Alice and I noticed she was caught up in a vision. I got into her head and saw Bella curled up in a ball by an empty fireplace. She was shivering and afraid.

“Alice?” I said.

“She's still alive,” Alice said. “That vision must be just before you get there. I don't see many other vampires with her.”

“Maybe we depleted all of her newborns,” Emmett said. “She can't fight us all.”

“But she has the upper hand,” Jasper reminded us. “We can't put Bella in anymore danger.” His jaw was clenched and judging from his thoughts, he was in battle mode. He was focused on one thing; getting Bella back.

“I'm going to move closer and make sure she's there,” I said, as I started to walk closer to the cabin. Jasper was right behind me. I stopped, turned and glared at him. “You're not coming.” I reminded him.

“Yes,” he said. “I am.”

“You'll get her killed,” I said, and I knew he felt my anger.

It's killing you that she needs me.

“Not as much as it's killing you that I'm the one that is going to save her,” I said.

He growled.

“Jasper,” Carlisle said. “Edward is right. He has to go alone for now. We'll give you ten minutes, and then we'll come for you.”

“Make sure she doesn't sense you coming. Don't all come at once,” I said, as I started walking toward the cabin.

“Edward,” Jasper called. “Please protect her.” I can't exist without her.

“Regardless of what the two of you have done, I still love her,” I said. “I would never let anything happen to her. I can't exist without her either.”

I took off running to the cabin, and after a few miles, I heard her erratic heartbeat. She was so scared. As soon as I approached the steps, a large vampire stepped out in front of me. He rivaled Emmett in size.

I pushed passed him. “Get out of my way!”

He growled and pushed me back. He laughed and spoke internally; You're not getting that pretty little human back. I'm only hoping Victoria lets me have a taste before she drains her, and I don't mean her blood.

I grabbed him by his neck and threw him across the yard. He jumped up and was blocking the door, before I could make my way in. I realized that no others were coming to his defense. There must not be any others. That was a good sign.

“Luke,” Victoria screeched. “Let Edward in. He's come alone, so he gets to watch Bella die, just as I promised.”

Luke stepped aside and I pushed through the door. Bella was huddled in the corner by the fireplace, just like in Alice's vision. I started toward her, but another vampire stepped in front of me.

I growled.

“Oh, Riley,” Victoria said. “Let them have their reunion. It's only right that Edward gets a chance to say goodbye.”

Riley stepped out of my way and I ran over to Bella. She looked up at me, and I saw the relief wash across her face. “Edward!” she cried. I dropped to my knees and scooped her up into my arms. I kissed her head and whispered, “It's okay, love, everything will be fine.”

No, it won't. I've made too many mistakes.

I looked down at her, and couldn't help but feel shocked. Did I just hear her thoughts?

“Edward,” Victoria interrupted my thought process. “I'm rather surprised that you listened and showed up alone.”

“You needed me to come alone,” I said. “You've run out of newborns, and there isn't anyone left to protect you.” This would be easier than we thought, especially if the wolves were on their way.

“It doesn't matter,” she said. “I'm strong enough to kill the two of you.”

“No!” Bella cried, “Not Edward,” she said, but her eyes were so vacant. “He doesn't deserve to die.”

I'm sorry, Edward...

“Bella,” I said. “You have nothing to be sorry for. I brought you into this twisted world.”

I've hurt you. I've done something so horrible. You'll never forgive me. I'm sorry...let her kill me.

“No,” I said. “You have to fight to stay with me.” I couldn't believe I was reading her mind. How was this possible?

Too tired...my head hurts all the time. I'm so overcome with guilt.

“Times up,” Victoria said. “You can watch her die now.”

Before she even had the words out of her mouth, Riley ripped Bella from my arms. I sprang to my feet and lunged at Victoria, knocking her into the wall. Bella screamed out in fear.

“You tell him to let her go,” I hissed, as I picked her up by the arm, pushing her in front of me and wrapping my hand around her neck.

“God,” she said. “You are fast. It's kind of sexy.” Maybe after we get rid of your human, we could...

That thought disgusted me. “I'll snap your neck,” I said. “Is that hot too?”

She laughed. “I don't think so. Riley?”

He pulled Bella's back against his chest and moved her hair out of the way, and then licked her neck in one long stroke as he pulled his lips over his teeth. Bella tried to get away from him, but his hold was too strong. She was so afraid, and now I wished I couldn't hear her thoughts. They were confused and random. It wasn't Bella at all.

“No!” she cried. “I can't leave him.” She wanted to live for Jasper. As convoluted and mixed up as her mind was, I knew she was talking about Jasper.

“I thought he wasn't your mate?” Victoria said. Stupid, crazy human.

“He's not my mate, he's not my mate,” she continued to cry. “Don't hurt him.”

Has she lost her mind? Of course he's her mate. I can see it in his eyes how much he loves her.

“I'm not,” I said. I wasn't giving her the satisfaction.

What did he just say? She thought. He has to be her mate. I have to do this for James.

“You heard me, you stupid bitch,” I said, as I increased the pressure on her neck. “She was telling the truth.”

Edward? I'm so sorry. I love you, but I'm so connected to Jasper. I can't explain it, but when I'm with him, I know he's the one I'm made for. I didn't mean to hurt you. I lied to you and I need to make it right. Please forgive me before I die.

“Tell him to let her go or I'm going to break your neck,” I growled, as I stared at Riley.

This human smells so good that I don't care if he snaps her neck. I'm biting and draining this girl!

“No!” I screamed, as I dropped Victoria and lunged for Riley. He threw Bella across the room, and she smacked into the stone fireplace. She let out a small whimper, as her head hit the floor and then I smelled it. Oh, God no!

I slowly glanced over at Bella, knowing exactly what I would see. She was lying on the floor, surrounded in a pool of blood. Riley grabbed me before I could get to her, and Victoria was crouched over Bella. She looked up at me and smiled, as her black eyes shifted back to Bella. She inhaled and laughed.

She smells so good...

She picked Bella up and stood her on her feet. Her eyes rolled in the back of her head, and I knew she was going to lose consciousness within seconds. The blood was gushing down her face, and I could hear all three of these vile vampires, and what they were going to do to her. Her blood was overwhelming them. I tried to break out of Riley's hold, but his grasp was too tight. Damn that newborn strength.

Victoria looked at me and smiled, as she licked Bella's face. “She's delicious, Edward,” she laughed. “Would you like a taste?”

“I'm going to kill you,” I growled, as I tried to pull out of his hold.

“Don't hurt, Edward,” Bella said, as she closed her eyes. “He's too good.”

“Bella,” I said. “Don't close your eyes.”

“No, Edward,” Victoria said. “It's better if she goes to sleep. It might hurt less.”

“I don't want it to hurt. Please, I need to live.”

Victoria laughed. “What do you need to live for? If he's not your mate?”

“I need to make it right,” she said. “I'm confused. I need to go home.”

“I think that she has completely lost her mind,” Victoria said. “She rambles and loses her thoughts so easily.”

“I want to be like you,” Bella said. “Can you change me?”

“Bella,” I shouted. “No!”

“Really, Bella? Just like me?” Victoria laughed. “Edward doesn't want that, so maybe that's my best revenge.”

“She doesn't know what she's saying,” I pleaded as I pulled against Riley's hold.

“You won't do it, Edward,” Bella said. “I have to be one of you.”

“Hmm,” Victoria laughed. “You know what might be fun? What if we turned her, and then she would be crazy for all of eternity? We carry over our human traits, you know. How would you and your angelic family handle a crazy vamp?”

“Will you turn me for him?” Bella asked.

“No,” I growled. “Don't you dare.”

Victoria pulled Bella's neck back, causing Bella to whimper and then her knees buckled a bit. “Is this what you want, Bella? To be one of us? I can do what Edward couldn't.”

Edward...I can do this...don't be afraid...

I let out a deafening scream as I watched Bella close her eyes, but just as Victoria was about to sink her teeth into her neck, she fell to her knees and let out a pained scream. She brought her hands to her head, and I could hear through her thoughts all of the pain and anguish she was feeling. Suddenly Riley let go of me and fell to the ground, letting out a wail of pain. I knew from his thoughts, he was being manipulated into despair and torture as well.

I looked up, and saw Jasper standing in the doorway. He was momentarily shocked when he saw Bella, but then his thoughts turned back to Victoria and I heard how he would kill her. He was on a mission.


I waited as long as I could, but I knew she needed me. I could feel it. Somehow I knew she was calling to me.

“Alice,” I said. “Can you see anything?”

“I'm sorry Jazz,” she said. “I don't know what's happening.”

“Let's move in now and attack,” Emmett said.

“No,” Carlisle said. “We can't jeopardize Bella and Edward. We said ten minutes.”

“I can't wait any longer,” I said, as I headed for the cabin.

“I agree,” Jake said, as he filed in with the rest of the pack. “We need to get Bella back, and now.”

“Jacob,” Sam said. “I want to speak with Carlisle first.”

“I don't have time,” I snapped.

“Fine,” Carlisle said. “Jasper you go, but you be careful. We will be right behind you.”

I nodded and then took off running. I heard her scream and I felt her pain. She was physically hurting, but I couldn't tell why. I pushed my legs as fast as they would go, and then I smelled her blood. It surrounded the cabin, and I could feel the thirst of the vampires in my range. I felt Edward's fear for Bella, as he screamed out her name.

I grabbed the large vampire that was standing at the door, looking inside the cabin. He was so caught up in Bella's blood, that he didn't even hear me coming. I quickly snapped his neck and threw him down the steps. The wolves would be here shortly and they could finish him.

I peered in the door and saw Victoria descend on Bella. I quickly sent her a strong dose of anguish and despair, enough to bring her to her knees. She fell to the floor, taking Bella with her. I did the same thing to Riley, and then I stepped inside. Bella was bleeding pretty heavily, but she was still conscious. I wanted to run to her, but I knew that I had to deal with Victoria first.

Edward moved to Bella and picked her up. She was whimpering and I knew her head hurt. I grabbed Victoria and pinned her against the wall. “You miserable bitch,” I said. “You'll pay for this. You went after the wrong brother,” I told her. “I'm the one who ripped James apart and threw him into that fire. I'll do the same to you.” I felt her shock.

Just as I was about to grab her throat, Carlisle put his hand on my shoulder and said, “Jasper,” he quietly said, “Let Sam and the pack take care of this.”

Emmett and Rose took Victoria outside. She tried to struggle out of their hold, but it was no use. They tossed her down the steps to where the wolves were waiting. They came back in and did the same to Riley.

I could hear them ripping their bodies to shreds. Good riddance.

“Carlisle,” Edward screamed. “Bella needs you.”

I froze. Would she be okay? What had they done to her?

Carlisle ran over to Bella. “Has she been bitten?”

Esme gasped and I felt her fear. “No!”

“No,” Edward said, but she hit her head really hard. “She's been bleeding for a few minutes, but she hasn't fallen asleep.”

I ran to her side and held out my arms for her. Edward hesitated, but then he looked down at Bella. He handed her over to me. “She wants to be with you.”

I took her in my arms and cradled her. I could feel the pain radiating off of her. Her blood was overwhelming us, but I knew that we were all strong enough to control whatever our natural instincts wanted. Really, I was the only one who could lose control, but there was no chance that was going to happen.

“How did you know that?” Rose asked. “That Bella wanted Jasper?”

“I can hear it in her thoughts,” he said.

“What?” Alice asked. “How?

“I don't know,” he said. “I just can. It started when I got here.”

“Emmett,” Carlisle said. “Give me your shirt. We've got to stop this bleeding.”

Emmett pulled his shirt off and handed it to Carlisle. Bella started to shake uncontrollably, so I held her closer to me, but I knew we were going to need Jacob.

“She's going into shock,” Carlisle said, as he pressed the shirt against her open wound.

Bella gripped my shirt between her fingers as tight as she could. “Don't leave me.” she whispered.

“Not ever,” I said, as I kissed the top of her head.

“My mind isn't right, Jasper,” she cried. “I'm so confused.”

“No, Bella, you're going to be fine.” I wanted to relax her, but I knew she shouldn't sleep with that head injury.

“Don't let them take me away from you,” she said, as she gripped my shirt tighter. “Don't let them send me away.”

“When I left her last year,” Edward said. “Charlie and Renee considered sending her someplace where she could heal.”

“No one is going to send you away,” I assured her.

“Carlisle,” Edward said. “She's freezing.”

“Rosalie,” Carlisle said. “Get me Jacob.”

“Bella,” I said. “I have to let you sit with Jake now. My body temperature isn't good for you.”

“No! No!” she started screaming. “Don't leave me!” I felt how panicked she was. Her anxiety was in overdrive.

“Carlisle,” I said. “I need to calm her. She's out of control.”

“Can you do it without making her fall asleep? I need to get her to the hospital for a cat scan.”

“No! No hospitals,” she pleaded. “Jasper can't stay with me there.”

“Bella,” Carlisle said. “Listen to me; you hit your head really hard. I don't have the machine to take care of you at home.”

“You can fix me, Carlisle,” she cried. “You always do.”

Carlisle sighed, “Fine, let’s get her back to the house and we'll watch her.”

Jake walked in and knelt in front of Bella. “I thought we agreed nothing stupid?”

“I want to stay with Jasper,” she said. “Please don't take me from Jasper. It's the same as it is for you and Ava.”

“Bella,” he said. “I can carry you back to the Cullens and keep you warm. I won't take you away from him.”

“She's scared and confused now,” Edward said. “She doesn't want to be away from Jasper. Let's just get her back to the house and get her head treated.”

“I can feel that,” I said. “But what are you picking up in her thoughts?”

“She's losing it, Jasper,” I said. “I hope it's just from the shock of what has been going on, but her thoughts are distant and random. She can't focus.”

“She may have a concussion.” Carlisle said. “Just get her home and be careful with her.”

I walked outside with her, and saw that Emmett was waiting with a truck. I looked at him questioningly, but I didn't care where he got it. This would be easier than running her through the forest, especially in her condition.

“Emmett?” Carlisle asked.

“I'll put it back when we're done, Pops,” he said. “Come on, Jazz, I can get her home in two minutes.”

I slid into the truck and cradled her in my lap, while the others took off running back to the house.

“You really do love her, huh?” Emmett asked.

“More than I've ever loved another,” I said, as I looked down at her.

“Then you have to do whatever it takes to keep her.” he said, and I felt his understanding over the situation.

“I intend to,” I said, as I stroked her hair. She pushed herself closer to me and smiled but I knew we were far from our happily ever after.

***Next few chapters will be full of drama and anguish, but once we get through that I will write some fluff for our couple, but we all know how I feel about fluff!

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