Fate Has Brought Us Here - Chapters 25-33
Title: Fate Has Brought Us Here
Category: Books » Twilight
Language: English, Rating: Rated: MA
Published: 04-09-09, Updated: 10-16-09
Chapters: 33, Words: 93,408
Chapter 29: Chapter 29
I was sort of disappointed when Jasper got us to our destination, within minutes of leaving the main house. I was enjoying the run so much, that I couldn’t possibly understand how it could ever be any better than me being latched on to him, taking in both the fresh air and his fantastic scent. Of course, it was wonderful because it was just another excuse to be close to him. I didn’t ever want to let go.
As he started to slow his pace, I could see a small house nestled in the woods, but as we neared I realized it was an adorable, little cottage; like something out of a fairy tale. Jasper released my legs and I slowly slid down his back.
“We are here, darlin’.” He pushed the windblown hair out of my eyes.
“Where exactly is here?” I asked.
“This is one of Esme’s little treasures. There are several on the property, and from time to time they are used for different purposes. Sometimes Alice uses one to design and create fashion lines, Emmett and Rose use one when they need time to be loud.” He shot me a wicked grin. “But, tonight this particular cottage is being used as a pre-honeymoon suite.” He opened the door, scooped me up, and carried me bridal-style over the threshold. I was immediately hit with the scent of roses as we came through the door. It reminded me of the night of my birthday in Alaska, a few months back.
He set me down, and I couldn’t help but be swept away by the beautiful atmosphere. Classical music was playing on the stereo, a bottle of champagne was chilling in an exquisite silver bucket placed next to two extremely delicate looking crystal glasses, and the room was filled with hundreds of pink and white roses, while dozens of candles illuminated the entire place. It was breathtaking.
“You did all of this?” I whispered.
“Esme helped. Do you approve?” he asked.
“I don’t know what to say. It’s gorgeous.”
“That’s only because you are standing here.” He kissed me softly. “I wanted tonight to be special.”
“You said this was a pre-honeymoon, but aren’t we supposed to be married before the honeymoon?”
“That’s just a minor detail that will be taken care of very soon. I was thinking that you aren’t going to get a proper wedding night, if all goes according to plan.” He led me over to the loveseat and pulled me into his lap. “If you still want me to change you that first night, then you will be writhing in pain for three days, and then you will be spending the next few weeks dealing with your thirst and adjusting to your new life.”
“Sounds romantic,” I said.
“Exactly my point. So, that is why I thought we should spend one last night like this; unless of course you change your mind and decide that you want me to turn you at a later time.”
“No, I want to do it as soon as possible. Please don’t try to change my mind.”
“Bella, I said I would do it and I will, but I just want you to know that you will have the opportunity to stop all the way up until the time I break your skin. I’m controlled enough to pull back.”
“It won’t be necessary. I won’t ask you to stop.” I wanted our forever to start as soon as we were married.
“Just know that you have the option, if you want it.” He was so sincere; always trying to make everything so right for me.
“I appreciate that, but now I’d like to start my evening.” I ran my tongue along his bottom lip, and gently tugged on it with my teeth.
“You’re naughty. We’re not here ten minutes, and already I feel how turned on you are. What about Alice’s rules?”
“You’re not serious? The rules are the reason I’m so turned on. It’s been days since we’ve made love. I can’t wait any longer.”
“As much as I want to jump into that part of the evening with you, there are a few things I wanted to do first.”
“Really?” I pouted.
“Patience is a virtue, darlin’.” He nipped at my bottom lip. “But, you won’t have to wait too long.” He slid me off his lap and onto the chair. He popped open the bottle, and poured two glasses of the sparkling drink. That peaked my curiosity, but obviously he felt that. “No, I won’t be drinking any, but I do want to propose a toast.” He handed me a glass, and placed a small package in my lap.
He knelt down in front of me, placing one hand on the package. “Six months ago, I never would have believed that we would be here today, getting ready to pledge our eternal love to one another in less than two days time. I would have thought that I could never deserve such an amazing honor, and to be honest, I’m still not sure how I pulled this off. I can’t wrap my mind around the fact that you want to be with me. My stomach still does flip flops when you walk into the room.”
I felt the tears sliding down my face, because I realized what he was saying were the precise things I was feeling. “Jasper, you are describing exactly what I feel about you. I still can’t grasp what it is about ordinary me that you would want.”
“Ordinary? Bella, be serious; there is nothing ordinary about you. When I look at you, I see the most amazing creature staring back at me with those gorgeous brown eyes, placing all the trust she has in me and that scares me, because I don’t ever want to disappoint you.”
“You never could. I do trust you, and I know that you’ll always do right by me. You’re my life, Jasper. I love you.” I took my glass and touched it to his.
“Hey, wait! This was supposed to be my toast.”
“You were taking too long. I want to open my present.” I looked down at my lap, at the elegantly wrapped box.
He touched his glass to mine. “To Mr. and Mrs. Whitlock.” He motioned for me to drink. “Please, and you can have mine too.” He set his glass down on the table next to us.
“Are you trying to get me drunk, Mr. Whitlock?” I giggled, as I sipped my drink. The bubbles tickled my nose, but I liked it, so I proceeded to finish the entire glass. “Hey, that’s really good. I’ve never had this before.”
“I know, and you probably never will again, so enjoy.” He took my empty glass, and handed me his. “Maybe you should sip this one, because I don’t want you passing out on me.” He smiled. No, I certainly didn’t want to pass out before he got a chance to ravish me.
“Can I open this now?” I picked up the package.
I quickly and carefully removed the wrapping paper … I didn’t need a paper cut, after all. Inside was a medium sized cream colored leather journal, and embossed on the front in the most delicate script, were the most fantastic words I had ever read:
“Oh, Jasper, that’s the first time I’ve ever seen it written out like that before.” He took my face in his hands and slowly kissed my lips.
“That’s who you are, darlin’.” He kissed me again. “Open the journal and read the inscription.”
I did as he asked:
My one and only love,
Cherish our memories always.
“Now you can record our eternity together,” he smiled.
“Thank you, for everything.” I picked up his glass and finished that as well, because I really did enjoy the taste.
“Would you like some more?” he asked.
“Maybe later,” I smiled, as I wrapped my arms around his neck. “I think I would like to have you now.”
He lifted me up and carried me to the bedroom, which was also overflowing with roses and candles. The wrought iron bed was almost as big as the one we shared in Alaska. He placed me in it, as I got up on my knees and started unbuttoning his shirt. I slowly slid it off of his granite shoulders and began placing kisses down his chest. My warm lips on his cool skin created an electrifying sensation, and it caused me to almost lose my breath. He must have like it too, because he grabbed a handful of my hair and pulled me closer to him. I worked my way down and began unbuckling his belt, and I could feel his hard erection against my hand, as I unbuttoned his pants letting them fall to the floor. I slid my tongue under the waistband of his boxers, and flicked it back and forth.
“Oh, Bella…” He quickly removed my shirt and bra, as he pushed me back on the bed, positioning himself between my legs. He slowly rid me of my remaining clothes, and then seductively slid his hands up my ribcage and over my breasts, rubbing his thumbs across my already hardened nipples.
I shivered from his gentle touch. He was barely touching me, but the awareness of him all over my body was already starting to make me lose control. He leisurely placed open mouth kisses down my stomach, swirling his tongue in my belly button, before continuing his evil descent. All of his moves were so concentrated and controlled. This was a man on a mission, and Lord, did I love him for it. He deliberately, but carefully spread my legs apart, and I moaned his name in anticipation of what was coming next. He skillfully licked along my inner thigh, moving closer to my waiting entrance. I quivered at the coolness of his breath, and then, when I didn’t think I could wait any longer, fire met ice as I lifted my hips to meet his mouth.
“Oh…Jasper…” My head was already spinning, when I felt him slip his fingers inside of me to work with his tongue, and I knew I wouldn’t last much longer. He still hadn’t increased the pressure of his touch, but my body was responding in ways that it never had before.
“Oh…I love… you’re going to make me…” I was incoherently babbling, and probably didn’t even know my own name at this point. “Jasper… I’m…I…” There were no words as I exploded into his mouth, and he lapped up every warm juice that I gave to him. I couldn’t catch my breath, as my eyes rolled into the back of my head. A wave of relaxation came over me, and I was grateful for where it came from. I smiled, and the only thing I was aware of was the sound of the wrapper being torn open. The noise made me realize that tonight would be the last time that barrier of protection would come between us. After tonight, every time we made love I would feel nothing but Jasper inside of me, and the thought of that turned me on even more than I already was; if that was even possible.
Jasper slid his finger up and down my entrance. “Already, Bella?” he laughed.
“I can’t help it, cowboy, you get me so hot!” I pulled him closer to me.
“So, you enjoyed that then?” He began kissing my neck, as he tangled his hands in my hair.
“Couldn’t you tell?” I arched my hips, hoping he would get the hint; he did. He snaked his hand down between our bodies and spread my hot, throbbing opening as he pushed his hard, welcomed intrusion inside. “Oh… Jasper.” He passionately kissed my lips. “You’re so tender tonight.” My senses seemed to heighten with every touch.
“You have to be able to walk down the aisle, darlin’, into my waiting arms. I can be gentle for that.” He thrust deeper, and I became lost in a wave of ecstasy; another gift from him. My head began to spin again and before I knew it, Jasper had brought us both to release. We lay tangled up in one another, still joined; and as I stayed relaxed and connected to him, I was gratified by the fact that we would have an eternity of nights just like this.
After our extremely successful night, Bella was still sound asleep, thanks to my assistance. I knew she probably wouldn’t have a very restful evening tonight, with me being away and her wedding nerves kicking in, so I wanted her to sleep as much as possible. It was a rare day in Forks, as the sun was shining and the birds were chirping. Strange, but pleasant. It would be nice for Bella to enjoy the sunlight one last time, before it became her natural enemy, at least in front of humans. She was lying on her stomach, so I straddled her, placing my knees on either side of her body and began kissing down her spine, stopping at her tailbone.
“Wake up, sweetheart. It’s time to go back to the house.” I began kissing my way back up. “Bella, I know you’re awake.”
“Hmm… that feels so good. You should wake me up like this every morning.” I felt her arousal.
“Yes, but then we would never leave the house.”
“True, but today we have to get back to the main house. Alice has a full day planned for you.”
“Ugh… manicure, pedicure, waxing, facial, highlights, and who knows what else! Please don’t make me go!”
“You’ll have fun, and you will be even more stunning than you already are; if that is possible.”
“I hate that you have to leave me overnight.” She was so cute when she pouted.
“I know. I don’t want to go either, but Emmett is really looking forward to it, and it could be a few days before I get the opportunity to hunt again, so I really need to go.”
“I’ll miss you.” She rolled over, and that put us in a very dangerous position. She bit her bottom lip. “Do we have to go right now?” Damn it, I was just as aroused as she was.
“You are a naughty girl.” I leaned down and kissed her lips. “One more time, since we won’t be together tonight.”
“Thank you, Jasper.” She giggled. My little vixen.
Alice, Rose and Esme were busy preparing for the wedding, while Emmett, Carlisle and Jasper were off on a hunting trip. Bella slept peacefully and soundly, probably dreaming of her future and all of the possibilities.
I sat outside her bedroom window, listening to how relaxed her breathing was, and how steady and calm her heart beat was. It saddened me when I thought that I would never hear those two things from her again. Her heart would no longer beat, and breathing wouldn’t be a necessity. How would she hold up in this new life? Could Jasper even be trusted to turn her? How could he be so sure he wouldn’t lose control and kill her? Why didn’t anyone see this as a potential problem? There was really only one answer to that; Bella. She had the utmost faith in him, and in the end, I suppose that was all that really mattered.
It should be me. I should be the one marrying her tomorrow, turning her on our honeymoon, and spending eternity in her arms. I knew that wasn’t going to happen… she didn’t want me. How was I ever going to accept that?
***Now come on … you didn’t really think he wasn’t going to make an appearance before they said “I do”. Did you?
Chapter 30: Chapter 30
As Alice fidgeted with my hair for the hundredth time today, I tried to relax, but it wasn’t working. I took deep breaths and tried to focus on what I was about to do very soon, but it was no use. I knew who I needed, but there was no way Alice was ever going to let that happen.
“Bella, take a deep breath. I can’t stand that constant knocking in your chest.” Alice pleaded with me.
“I can’t help it, Alice. It’s my heart beat; I’m nervous and I miss him.”
“Oh, for God’s sake! It hasn’t even been that long since the last time you saw him. Now settle down, before he comes barging in here with all those calming vibes.”
“He’s here? In the house?” I was excited.
“Yes, he is back and getting dressed as we speak.” She was still touching my hair. “Perfect!” She smiled as she turned my chair, so that I could see for myself.
I was stunned. I didn’t recognize the girl in the mirror. The hair, the make up, was flawless. I was flawless. “Alice,” I whispered. “How?”
“What do you think I have been doing to you for the past two days?” She shook her head.
She was amazing. Alice could do anything, and I hoped that I could be half the vampire she was. “Thank you, Alice.” I hugged her.
“Bella, don’t be silly, you were already beautiful.” She wrapped her arms around me. “I only enhanced.”
“I’m not thanking you for just making me look pretty, or for this spectacular wedding you planned.” I pulled out of the hug so that I could really look at her. “I’m thanking you for him.” I hoped that she could accept that as it was meant.
“Bella, he is exactly where he should be,” she smiled.
“Only because you helped him get there.”
“I did what I knew was right, and seeing the two of you in the present, not just in a vision, solidifies my decision. As much as I loved him, and part of me still does, I could never make him feel the way he does when he is with you. For so many years he was tortured and lost, and now when he sees you, his whole face lights up. In all the time we were together, I could never make him look that way. He was waiting for you.” She fixed my hair again.
“Alice, how are you okay with this? I would never be able to give him up, and here you are helping us.” She was the most generous person I had ever met.
“I’m okay with this, because if I had to let him go, I would only want him to be with you. I love you like a sister, and I know you make him happy.”
I started to cry. My heart was breaking for Alice because I knew how much she loved Jasper, and if it was as half as much as I did, there was no way this was easy for her.
“Stop it; you ridiculous girl! If you mess up that make up, I’ll turn you myself!” She took a tissue and gently wiped under my eyes. “Bella, I’m good with this. I promise. We’re going to have years to sort through all of this, and it will all work out. Trust me.”
“I do. Sisters?” I asked.
“Sisters.” She wiped my face again. “I need to go check on a few last minute details. It’s almost show time.” She fluttered around the room.
I started to panic “How soon?”
“Bella, your heart is pounding again.” She shook her head, and then looked at the door. “Now you’ve done it. Jazz, don’t you open that door!” She walked over to it. “Get away from this room.” She shouted at him.
“Jasper?” I called, as Alice gave me a dirty look.
“Yes, darlin’.” He spoke through the door. “How are you holding up?”
“Do you really have to ask?”
“No, you’re nervous, anxious and you miss me.” I could almost see his smile.
“Alice, please let him in,” I begged.
“Absolutely not! We are doing this the traditional way, or we’re not doing it at all!” She wasn’t going to change her mind.
“Fine, Alice.” Jasper said. “I’ll turn around so that you can come out, and then I’ll talk to Bella through the door. Is that traditional enough for you? Besides, if you don’t let me calm her down, you will never get her out of that room.”
“How do I know you won’t come in?” she asked.
“Come on, Alice. I would never ruin all of the work you put into today. The downstairs looks lovely. You really outdid yourself, and you have my word as a gentleman.”
She really couldn’t argue with that. I was even dazzled.
“Damn it, Jazz! You and all of that Southern charm.” She looked at me. “Bella, you better not open that door after I leave.”
“I won’t, I just want to hear his voice.” I already felt better.
“Turn around, Jasper, and I’ll come out.” She shot me another warning glance, and said. “I’ll be back in a little while for you. Don’t sit down or you’ll wrinkle your dress!” Then she left the room.
I walked over to the door. “Bella, put your hand against the door.” I did as he asked, and immediately felt his warm, soothing vibe. “In less than an hour, you are going to be Mrs. Whitlock. You’ll be mine, Bella; for always.”
“I can’t wait anymore. I need to see you and feel your arms around me. I want to be yours forever.”
“Soon, sweetheart. Right now, I need you to stay calm and relaxed. Did you have a good evening?”
“I slept really well, and I even dreamt of you all night.” I smiled.
“Well, I can definitely feel what that dream was about.” He laughed. “Maybe you better forget about it until we’re alone.”
“How was your hunt?” I tried to focus on something else.
“Very good, but I couldn’t wait to get back to you. I heard that you met Peter and Charlotte this morning.”
“Yes, they are very nice. I can see why you like them so much.”
“They were quite taken with you as well. They think you are exquisite and can’t wait for us to visit, once you are ready.”
“I look forward to it.”
“I can feel that you are doing better, now.”
“Yes, I just needed you. I don’t ever want us to be apart again.”
“We won’t ever have to be, but I better get going now; I need to finish getting ready.” He anticipated my anxiety and calmed me, before I could object. “Just a few more minutes.”
“I’m okay now. I’ll see you soon.” I pressed my forehead against the door.
“Bella?” He called.
“I love you too, Jasper.” How could I not?
He laughed. “I’ll see you in a few minutes, darlin’.”
And, then he was gone. I was excited now, because I knew that very soon I would see his beautiful face and pledge my love to him. I paced the room, waiting for Alice and Carlisle to come for me. Alice was going to be my maid of honor, while Emmett stood for Jasper, and Carlisle was going to give me away. While I missed Charlie and Renee, I knew I made the right decision by not having them here. And since the Cullen’s were going to be my family for the rest of eternity, it only made sense that they be here to witness this very special day.
I stood in front of the mirror, taking a good look at myself. Today I was saying goodbye to Isabella Swan in more ways than one. Today I would be taking a new name, and tomorrow I would be starting a whole new future. Strangely, I wasn’t afraid. This was my destiny, and Jasper was going to fulfill it. I was so lost in my own thoughts that I didn’t hear the door open. I saw the reflection behind me in the mirror, but I wasn’t sure how long he had been standing there. I didn’t turn around as I spoke his name.
“Edward,” I smiled.
She was an absolute vision of perfection. She was looking at herself in the full length mirror, lost in her thoughts. I wished I could read her mind, just this one time. After a few minutes, she realized I was there, but she didn’t seem startled. She actually smiled when she said my name.
“Hello, love. You look beautiful.” I wanted to touch her, but I didn’t want to press my luck. I was just grateful she didn’t ask me to leave.
She slowly turned and looked at me. “I didn’t think you were coming.”
I took a careful step toward her. “I’m not staying, but I wanted to see you.” I just needed to see her as my Bella one last time, before she truly became his in every sense of the word.
“I’m glad you’re here.” She seemed happy.
“I just wanted you to know how happy I am for you. I can see how much you love him.”
“Bella, it’s okay. You don’t owe me any more explanations.” I smiled at her. God, she was beautiful. “I also wanted to tell you that I’m sorry for all the pain that I’ve caused you.”
“No, you don’t need to apologize. I have forgiven you for everything. I realize that you leaving me was a necessary part of my life.” She came closer to me, and reached for my hand. The warmth of her touch heated my entire body. “It was necessary for you, too. I know that there is something good waiting for you out there. You are too good of a man for there not to be. You’ll find your destiny too.” She started to cry.
“Don’t do that.” I wiped the tears from her face. “Alice will kill me.” I smiled. “I better go now. You have something important to do.”
“Thank you for coming to see me today. You don’t know how much it means.”
“It was my pleasure, love.” I gently leaned in and kissed her forehead, as I released our hands.
I love you, Bella…
I quickly left the room, and headed down the hall. There was someone else I needed to make amends with.
I stood outside the bedroom door, where Jasper was getting ready. I heard him say my name in his head. I didn’t knock, since he already knew I was there. I entered. “How did you know it was me?”
He didn’t turn around right away. “Because you have the darkest emotions of any vampire I have ever encountered.”
We laughed, but we both knew it wasn’t funny.
“Not that I’m complaining,” he turned to look at me. “But, I didn’t think you were coming.” Why are you here? He thought.
“Don’t worry, Jazz, I’m not here to kidnap your bride.”
“I guess that’s reassuring, but was there a possibility?”
“Only slightly,” I grinned.
“Hmm… well, I can smell that you’ve seen her. How is she?”
“She is very happy and excited to marry you.”
“Well, the feeling is mutual. You’re not here to ask me for her back, right?”
“No, that’s not what she wants. I don’t have to be able to read her mind to know that she is completely devoted to you, and wants nothing more than to spend the rest of her existence pleasing you. Don’t take that lightly, Jasper.”
“As if I could. I know how special she is, and how lucky I am to have her.” Thank you, by the way he spoke in his head.
“I can’t really say that is what I intended to do when I let her go, but I can see now that was the best thing for her, so you are welcome. The best way you can thank me, is to take good care of her. Help her as much as you can with the transition. Don’t let her slip up because you know with her personality, she could never live with that guilt.”
“Bella is strong, and if there ever was anyone who could resist that temptation, it’s her, but I will do everything in my power to make sure she never has to know the pain and agony of being what we really are.”
“I trust you. She’s in good hands.”
“Thanks.” He extended his hand and I shook it. For the first time in years, I had my brother back. “I guess I better get downstairs.” He started for the door.
“Wait, Jazz, just one more thing.” I didn’t want to offend him, but I had to ask. “Are you sure you can do this without killing her?”
“If I didn’t think I could do it, I wouldn’t risk it. I would never hurt her.”
“I know, but I had to ask. Good luck, Jazz.” He smiled as he headed downstairs to wait for his beautiful bride to come to him.
Alice rushed by the door, on her way to get Bella. She doubled back when she realized I was there. Crap, I didn’t factor you in today, she thought.
“Relax, Alice, I’m not here to cause a problem. I just wanted to see the two of them before they left. I’m leaving now, too.”
“Where are you going?” Are you going far? I need you.
“No. Alice. I’m staying put for awhile. I’ll be back tonight, and then you and I can go for a hunt. Sound good?”
“Yes, sounds perfect, and then tomorrow we are off to Seattle for a shopping spree.” You’re not getting out of it!
I rolled my eyes. “Fine, Alice. I’ll see you later. You better go get Bella, before she has another panic attack.” Then we heard Rosalie begin playing the piano. “I’m much better at that.”
“Yes, well, I didn’t think you should be the one playing the wedding march today.” She kissed my cheek and skipped down the hall.
For the first time in a long time, I felt content; not happy, but okay. I could live with okay, as long as I knew that Bella was getting everything she wanted, even if I wasn’t the one to give it to her.
Chapter 31: Chapter 31
I heard Rosalie begin the music and my heart began to pound, but not from nerves this time. Now, I was excited because in just a few minutes I would see Jasper and once we took our vows we would always be together. I took a moment to reflect on all the events in my life that got me to this point; making the decision to come and live with Charlie in Forks, meeting Edward, falling in love with him, my eighteenth birthday, Edward leaving, moving to Alaska, enrolling in that Civil War class, running into Jasper and taking a chance with him. Yes, all of those actions brought me here today and I would do anyone of them over again if it meant finding Jasper.
“Bella?” I was lost in my thoughts of Jasper when Carlisle took my hand. “Alice just started her descent down the steps, so we are up next.”
I smiled. “I’m ready.”
“Yes, I know. You are striking. Jasper is very lucky.”
“No, I’m the lucky one. He has given me so much and I only want to make things good for him.”
“Bella, you already have. You have altered him so completely. He is no longer the lost soul that he once was. He has changed for you and I know that your future holds such wonderful opportunities. I can’t wait to witness your life together.”
“Carlisle, I want to thank you for everything that you have done for all of us. I am really looking forward to becoming a part of your family and I am so humbled by the way all of you have embraced me.”
“We are your family now and we will always consider you one of us. I will be there for you always, but especially in the next few months when you will need our support the most.” He touched my cheek.
“I appreciate that and I hope that I can make you proud in my new life.” The music shifted to the Wedding March. It was time.
“You already make me very proud. Shall we?” He took my arm and led me to the staircase.
“Carlisle, please don’t let me fall.” I panicked at the thought of the steps and the ridiculously high heels I was wearing.
He chuckled. “Never, Bella.”
Alice really did out do herself. The whole living room was transformed into a quaint chapel. White pillar candles surrounded the entire area, along with satin bows and elaborate floral arrangements placed perfectly around the room. As I walked into the room I saw him; the most beautiful creature I had ever seen. He was smiling at me with those gorgeous golden eyes and with that one look I knew that my world could never get any better then this. Jasper was my life and always would be. I was complete.
I stood under an arch way of roses waiting for her. I knew it would be soon as Alice had just walked in a taken her place. I stepped closer to her and kissed her cheek. “You did a fantastic job with all of this.”
“Wait until you see Bella.” She winked.
Peter was standing in front of me while Emmett was by my side. Esme and Charlotte stood by Alice. It was a very comforting feeling to have all of them here and I could feel all the love and joy that was emitting from each of them. Finally, an emotional climate that I didn’t have to control. It was nice.
Just as the music changed to the Wedding March, I happened to glance out the window and noticed the light snowfall that was covering the branches and the ground. It only enhanced the already perfect atmosphere.
I heard her heartbeat as she came down the stairs. In just a second she would turn the corner and be by my side. I could hardly contain my enthusiasm. Emmett touched my shoulder and I appreciated the gesture. Then if my heart could have it would have stop at the sight of my beautiful girl smiling as she walked toward me. Her eyes were filling with tears, but she was trying to laugh through them. Words could not describe how incredible she looked at that moment. She was a vision of grace, elegance and sheer perfection and she was mine.
Carlisle walked her to me and placed her hand in mine. I could feel everything she was feeling as our hands touched. There was not one of her emotions that I was not feeling on my own. I couldn’t stop myself as I leaned in and kissed her lips. I was so overwhelmed by the mere sight of her. I deepened the kiss. I heard Peter clear his throat as Emmett tapped my back.
“Jazz, it’s not time for that part yet.” Everyone laughed.
I broke the kiss and Bella giggled. She wasn’t even embarrassed. I whispered in her ear. “You look stunning.” She blushed. I turned to Peter. “Okay, I’m ready now.”
Peter started the ceremony off very traditionally offering a few words about Bella and me. Then Esme and Charlotte both recited poems about love and marriage. I couldn’t help it, but I wasn’t really paying attention to anything other than Bella. For me nothing else mattered. I was lost in her. When it came time to say our vows Bella and I had agreed to write our own. I went first at her insistence. Silly girl.
We faced one another and I took both of her hands in mine. I was so caught up in her that I almost forgot what I was doing, but then she gave me a warm smile allowing me to feel her love and it all came back to me.
“Bella, my beautiful girl, it seems that I have been waiting a very long time for you, but I would have waited even longer if I had to because you are certainly worth it. In the short time that we have been together I have experienced emotions that I only thought were meant for other people. When I’m with you I feel joy, comfort, passion, friendship and love. It’s all for you.” I gently squeezed her hands. “When I think back on all the terrible things that I have done throughout my existence I can not fully grasp how I could be standing here today worthy of accepting your love, but I have it on good authority that this is exactly the way things were meant to be.” I smiled at Alice. “Fate has brought us here, darlin’, and I intend to keep us here forever. I love you with every fiber of my being. Always.”
I gently wiped the tears from her face. God, I wanted to kiss her again, but I knew I had to wait. Tradition and all. She spoke next and while her voice was a little shaky she didn’t seem to require my calming assistance so I didn’t manipulate what she was feeling.
“Jasper, I would never hold your past against you. The actions that you have taken throughout your course have made you the man that you are today; the man I love. You are kind, sensitive, romantic, tender, compassionate, and full of so much love. I can’t begin to tell you how excited I am that you will be my best friend, lover, soul mate and husband until the end of time. I will love, honor and respect you all the days of my existence.” Her voiced cracked a tiny bit, but she took a breath and regained her composure. “Jasper, my life starts today. I love you with all of my heart. Always.”
Next, we exchanged rings and vowed to love one another for all of eternity. Peter said a few parting words and wished us luck in our new life and then he said it.
“I now pronounce you Mr. and Mrs. Jasper Whitlock.” He shot me a look. “Now, Jasper you may kiss your bride.” As if I needed his permission. I took my gorgeous girl in my arms and knew I would never have to let her go. We kissed deeply and passionately, and the only reason I stopped was because I felt Bella’s knees begin to buckle. I released her but kept her hand in mine. “I still got it.”
“Yes, you do!” She smiled.
Alice took both of us in an exuberant hug. “I love you guys! Now, take really good care of one another. Or you will have to deal with me.”
“Oh, Alice, everything is perfect. Thank you for doing all of this.”
“It was my pleasure. I have you all packed for Greece, so make sure you wear everything. Change two times a day if you have to.” She smiled. “Jasper will be particularly interested in what you will be wearing tomorrow night.” She flitted over to Rosalie.
Carlisle and Esme came to us next. “Bella, you are so beautiful.” Esme hugged her and then me. “I am so happy for you both. I can’t wait to come and visit you, soon.” She looked at me.
“As soon as you would like, Esme.” I told her.
“Congratulations, Mr. and Mrs. Whitlock.” Carlisle shook my hand. “May you have many years of total bliss. I know I have.” He looked adoringly at Esme. “We will say goodbye before you go.” They walked away hand in hand.
Bella whispered in my ear. “I hope we are that happy and in love after all of that time, too.”
“We will be, I promise.” I softly kissed her lips.
“Get a room!” Emmett yelled.
I rolled my eyes. “Don’t make me regret having you as the best man.”
“Bella, you look great. Welcome to the family and thanks for taking him off of our hands.” He laughed. “Can I kiss your bride?” He asked me.
“If you behave.” He leaned in and kissed her on the cheek.
“Of course he will.” Rose said as she walked to us. I was ready to manipulate her emotions but I wasn’t getting any negativity from her. Strange.
“Congratulations.” She said. “Bella, you look beautiful.” She smiled at her.
“Thank you, Rose. That means so much.” Bella said. It meant a lot to me, too.
“You two have a good time in Greece and call when you are ready for us to come and visit.”
“As soon as Bella is up to guests you are more than welcomed to come and stay with us.” I said as she hugged me.
“Come on Emmett, let’s go for a run in the snow. You know what weddings do to me.” She purred in his ear.
“I’m right behind you, baby! See you two later.” He ran after her.
Bella and I laughed at the two of them flying out the door and into the falling snow.
“Jasper, congratulations to you and your beautiful bride.” Peter said.
“I’m so glad that the two of you could be here.” I said to him and Charlotte.
“We wouldn’t have missed this for anything.” Charlotte said. “Bella, you take care of our really good friend.”
“Of course I will.” She squeezed my hand.
“Bella,” Peter said. “I was so glad that I could be such an integral part of this very special day. I look forward to meeting you again very soon when you are turned. I have a sense that you are going to do some pretty special things as a vampire. There is something about you that is going to make you different from the rest. Don’t you think Jasper?”
“Well, Peter you are the one that can usually determine these things, so we will see if you are right, but Bella will always be special to me whether she has a talent or not.”
“True, but I see great things coming from this one.” He smiled at her. “And, I’m usually not wrong about these things.”
“Take care and get in touch with us soon. I would love to have the two of you come and stay with us for a while.”
“Goodbye, Charlotte.” I hugged her. “Peter, thank you.” I shook his hand.
“Good luck, Jasper. I know everything will work out. Goodbye Bella.”
“Thank you again for coming. It meant a lot to us both.” They walked over to where Carlisle and Esme were standing.
“Well, Mrs. Whitlock it sounds like you are going to be pretty busy with your new life. So many want to visit you and have you visit them. I hope you will have time for your new husband.”
“You will always come first.” She kissed me, but I could sense that she had a question for me.
‘What is it, sweetheart?” I asked.
“What did you mean when you said that Peter can determine what a vampire will be able to do?”
“Ah, are you nervous that he is expecting too much from you?”
“Kind of, I mean why would he think that I would be able to do anything special?”
Was she serious? “Why do you not see how wonderful you are?”
She blushed. “To you I am and that is all that matters.”
I shook my head. “Peter always seemed to get a sense about the newborns we had trained. He could tell which ones would do well in battle and which of those had an extra power like mine or Alice. It was very useful in planning our strategies for Maria’s territories.”
“But, I’m not a newborn yet. How could he know anything about me?”
“Peter was seldom ever wrong. So, darlin’ if he says that you will do great things then I believe you will.” I hugged her. I didn’t care what she was able to do as long as she was mine.
“Jasper, I hope that I am just as amazing a vampire as you are.” She hugged me back.
“You will be better then me. I know it.” Alice came running over to us.
“Come on, Bella needs to eat before you go to the airport. I’ve set the dining room for the two of you.”
“Thanks, Alice. You have thought of everything.” Bella hugged her.
“What will Bella be eating?” I asked.
“I got her all of her favorites just like you requested Jazz since this will probably be the last time she wants to eat any of it.” She smiled. “Oh and I heard you like champaign , so drink up!” She led us into the dining room. The table was elegantly set with Esme’s mother’s china and crystal. There was an detailed floral arrangement in the center surrounded by candles.
“This is all for me?” Bella was referring to the many platters of food. “I can’t eat all of this.”
“You don’t have to, but I wanted to give you some choices.” I knew that she would never want to eat pizza, pasta or chicken again so I made Alice get everything I thought she would want. Even her favorite latte. “Enjoy.”
“Thank you both for doing this.” She was pleased at the sight of her mini reception. She glanced at the corner of the room. “A cake, too?”
It’s a wedding isn’t it? Alice asked as she walked over to the stereo and put on “At Last” by Etta James. “Dance with your bride. I’ll be back soon to get Bella ready for your trip.”
“I extended my hand. “Shall we?” She bit her bottom lip and hesitated. “What?”
“I-I don’t dance.” She was embarrassed.
“Oh, darlin’ of course you do.” I grabbed her waist and pulled her to me. “I’ll lead.”
“You are going to make me try all sorts of new things aren’t you?”
“You have no idea.” I pulled her closer to me pressing my face to the top of her head. “You smell so good.” I ran my lips down her cheek and across her jaw. She shivered as she tilted her head up to meet my lips. “You are so perfect.” I took her face between my hands as I barely touched her mouth to mine. “I can’t wait to get you alone.” I rubbed my finger across her bottom lip; she opened her mouth allowing me entrance. She seductively swirled her tongue around my fingertip, kissing it when I pulled it out of her mouth. I pressed my lips to hers again, slowly sliding my tongue in and softly kissing her. I could feel her desire building and I knew if I didn’t stop we would be using Esme’s table for much more then eating. The song was over, so I broke the kiss, but held her for a moment longer. She looked up at me and smiled.
“What are you thinking?” As if I didn’t know.
“That I can’t wait to get to our honeymoon destination, but is there any way…”
I smiled as I felt more desire coming from her. “Well, there is the limo ride to the airport.”
Her eyes lit up in anticipation. “When can we leave?”
I laughed at my eager girl. “Soon, sweetheart, but you need to eat first.” I walked us over to the table and pulled out a chair for her. I popped open the bottle and poured her a glass.
She took the glass and sipped. She looked at all of the food and I could feel her confusion. She didn’t know where to start. She looked at me for help.
“Why don’t you start with your favorite and work your way down the table.”
She motioned for me to come closer. “You’re my favorite.” She bit my lip.
“Bella,” I laughed. “I’m worried that I won’t be able to keep up with you once you are immortal.”
“Oh, you better, Mr. Whitlock. That’s an order.” She kissed my lips.
“Yes, Mrs. Whitlock, I’ll always give you exactly what you want starting with the car ride on the way to the airport. Hurry up and eat!”
Chapter 32: Chapter 32
***Since so many of you wanted the limo ride (you guys are as insatiable as Bella, lol) I will write it into the sequel as a flashback. I didn’t want to throw it in to this story because I didn’t want to break the flow, but I will work it in to the next one.
After a long day of travel we finally arrived at our destination. It was everything that I had hoped it would be. It was extremely isolated which would make Bella’s transition that much easier. The back of the villa led out to our private beach which went on for miles while the front over looked cliffs. It was a huge task in itself to even reach the property so I didn’t have to worry about curious humans stumbling upon us. Of course housekeeping would come once a week, but Bella would never be there without me. I had decided that having a human in the house occasionally would help desensitize her to human blood plus if Bella got to know the woman who was coming and going she would be less likely to want to harm her.
We walked hand and hand up the stone path that was aligned with tropical plants and landscape lighting. We stopped at the frond door as Bella looked around. “Jasper, this is gorgeous.”
“I hoped that you would like it.”
“This is really ours?” I felt her excitement.
“Our first home as a married couple.” I scooped her up; she giggled at my speed. “You know that I have to carry you over the threshold.” I opened the door and entered the foyer. It was light and airy which seemed to be the theme of the entire place. I walked us through the house allowing her to absorb each room.
“Jasper, it’s so big. We won’t need all of these rooms.”
I shot her a wicked grin. “I’m sure we can find a purpose for each of them, but let’s check out the bedroom first.” I carried her down the hall and to the master bedroom. The huge window offered a mesmerizing view of the ocean and there was a walkout patio to the beach. I was pleased to see that the bed was just as I had requested; as big as ours was in Alaska. It was an exquisite antique four poster canopy bed with soft white netting draped around it. I thought it was a nice, tranquil place for Bella to spend the next three days.
I gently dropped her on the bed as she pulled me down with her. I moved us up to the top placing her between my legs with her back against my chest. “You must be exhausted. Would you like to take a nap?”
“No, I’m too anxious to sleep.” She put her head back so that she could look at me. I wrapped a strand of her hair around my fingers.
“It doesn’t have to be tonight.” I reminded her. “We have plenty of time.”
“Yes, Jasper it does have to be tonight.” She took my hand and placed it on her heart. “Even though it will no longer beat it will always belong to you.”
“I will miss hearing it beat.” I would miss so many things about my human Bella, but I would be gaining so much more once she was a vampire.
“Are you having second thoughts?” She panicked.
“Of course not, sweetheart.” I calmed her down. “I just want to be sure you are ready.”
“Jasper, I swear to you that this is what I want. I need to be with you forever, so please let it be tonight.”
I couldn’t deny her anything; not even a request to end her life. “I’m going to get the luggage out of the jeep. Apparently Alice has shipped a few more trunks and they will be here shortly, but whatever you need now is here.”
“A few more trunks? What else could I possibly need? We brought six large suitcases with us.” She rolled her eyes.
“You know Alice.” I smiled. “Why don’t you take a shower and get comfortable? I’ll try to be back before you finish, but I think it is important for me to hunt before we continue this evening.”
“Take your time because I want you to be just as prepared as I am.” She smiled and I could feel how ready she was. She moved away from me crawling off the bed. I followed and took her into my arms.
“The hunting is just a precaution. I won’t lose control with you.” I kissed her softly on the lips.
“I trust you.” She kissed me back and then rested her head on my shoulder.
“You don’t know how much that means to me especially since I am going to be the direct cause of some serious pain for you.”
“Is that what you are worried about? I’m not scared.”
“I know, but I am going to try to take as much of that pain from you as possible. I’ll use my power any way that I can.”
“I don’t want you to hurt yourself. You have endured enough pain for one lifetime.” Didn’t she know that I would certainly be willing to bear all of her suffering that she would feel over the next three days if that were possible?
I tucked her hair behind her ear and gently kissed her neck. She shivered and began to open her mouth to speak. “Shh…” I whispered. “I’m just giving you a little preview.” Her heart rate increased, but she wasn’t afraid. I gently sucked on her neck in the exact spot where in just a short time I would be biting. She let out a small moan and I felt my insides twitch along with other body parts.
“Okay, darlin’, you better lock yourself in that bathroom before I take you right now.”
“Like a lock would keep you out.” She smiled.
“True.” I laughed. “Very true.”
She walked into the bathroom and turned on the shower. I went to the car and retrieved the suitcases opening hers and placing it on the chest at the foot of the bed. I headed out the patio doors and took off running trying to clear my head and center myself. I laughed at the fact that I seemed to be more nervous then Bella was. My brave girl.
I wasn’t gone long and I had a pretty successful hunt considering I wasn’t at all familiar with my new surroundings. I was excited that Bella and I could learn this new territory together. I looked forward to teaching her all the things that she would need to know in her immortal life. When I returned to the house Bella was still fidgeting around our bathroom, so I decided to shower in the one down the hall. Thanks to the fact that I was a guy and had vampire speed I was still finished before her.
I went back into the bedroom and listened to the sound of the blow dryer. Did it really matter if her hair was wet? I sat on the edge of the bed, laid back and ran my hand through my hair. I had to calm down and focus. I knew the hardest part for me was making sure I didn’t drink too much of her. Carlisle had said that it was imperative for me to know when to stop. I just needed to take enough so that her heart would begin to slow and then I would need to seal my venom inside her veins. I could do this because it was what we both wanted and needed.
She stepped out of the bathroom and stood in the doorway. I sat up and was immediately swept away by her beauty. She wore a white, flowing, spaghetti strapped, sheer nightgown that hugged her in all the right places; it allowed me to really appreciate how perfect her body was. Her long, dark hair hung naturally over her shoulders and down her back and moved with her as she walked to me. I placed my hands on either sides of her hips and pulled her closer to me.
“You look like an angel.” I ran my hands up her sides stopping at her breasts. “My angel.”
“Alice.” She was referring to her new nightgown.
“Remind me to buy her something nice.” I kissed her neck. She threw her head back allowing me further access.
“She wants a Porsche.” She tangled her fingers in my hair as I kept kissing her throat. “A yellow one.” She moaned.
“And what color do you want?” I pulled her into my lap as I stared deeply into those beautiful eyes.
“Surprise me.” She said as her lips found mine. We kissed slowly and sensually taking our time as we allowed our hands to explore one another. I trailed to her back as I moved my fingertips up and down her spine. She sighed into my mouth and suddenly my pants became extremely uncomfortable. Before standing I placed her in the center of the bed so that I could remove my pants and shirt.
She sat up and began to pull her nightgown off. I moved to her. “Not yet.” I whispered in her ear. “I’m going to do that.” But not yet, no, I didn’t want to rush any of this for it was the last time I would make love to my human Bella and I wanted to relish every touch, feel and taste, and give her as much pleasure as possible before I caused her the worse pain she would ever experience.
I laid her back down and began kissing and licking my way along her body through the thin material that came between us. I stopped at her breast and found her waiting nipple. I took it in my mouth and swirled my tongue over it, gently applying light pressure with my teeth.
“Jasper…” She arched her body to me as I continued to alternate between breasts for a few minutes and I could feel her desire intensify. Feeling her passion along with mine nearly caused me to plunge over the edge, but I regained control; tonight was all about my self control. As I paid close attention to her protruding nipples I slid my hand down her stomach, slightly brushing her moist heat with my fingertips. She moaned my name as I slipped her panties down her thighs feeling her fresh arousal dripping down them. She was more then ready, but I still didn’t want this part to end. I released her breast from my mouth and continued my journey down her stomach and just as I had done with my hand a few seconds earlier I brushed my lips over her newly exposed core pressing my tongue into her entrance. She tasted so good as I swiped my tongue up and down her hot sex a few more times before sucking and licking the brand new juices from her thighs.
“Please Jasper; I need to feel you in me.” She moaned. “Please…” Her arousal became unbearable for both of us.
“You don’t have to beg darlin’ because that is exactly where I want to be.” I stood up and removed my boxer shorts freeing my extremely hard erection. A surge of lust shot through me as I remembered that I was finally going to feel Bella and nothing else. Tonight it didn’t matter that my venom would flow freely throughout her body.
She stared at my naked body for a few seconds as she bit her bottom lip. “You are gorgeous.” I felt another wave of desire from her.
I came back to her and gently placed myself on top of her body. I took her face between my hands and slowly kissed her lips. “Are you ready?”
Her heart rate increased at my question. I concentrated on her emotions, but again I felt no fear or uncertainty. “Yes.” She whispered as she leaned her head to one side offering her neck to me.
“Thank you.” I said as I pushed her gown up over her hips glancing down to take in her beauty. “But, I thought maybe we could do this first.” I slowly slid myself inside her. “Oh, Bella… that is amazing.” I could feel how warm and tight she was as her muscles contracted around me. It was like I was experiencing her for the first time. I picked up my pace and she met me thrust for thrust.
“Oh, baby you feel so good.” She said. “I can feel everything you are giving me.”
I moved my hands under her back and pulled her closer to me. I began to suck and gently nip at her neck. I felt her climax begin to build inside of her.
“Make me just like you.” She wrapped her legs around my hips as I slid deeper into her. “Make me yours forever … bite me … baby … I’m … I…” She was so caught up in her own ecstasy that she couldn’t even get her thoughts out.
She let go as I felt a warm rush of fluids trickle down me. Without removing myself from her I shifted our positions so that I was sitting and she was straddling me. I wanted to make this next part as easy and as comfortable for her as possible. “Look at me, Bella.” She did as I asked. “I love you; never forget that.”
She was still reeling from her orgasm but she managed to breathe out, “I love you, too. Always.”
I continued to thrust into her needing to bring myself to release before I could give her what she wanted. I pulled her gown up over her head and tossed it aside. I could feel that amazing sensation rising from within me and I knew it wouldn’t be long. I moved her hair away from her neck, kissing her pulsing vein and then running my icy tongue along it.
She anticipated my next move and braced herself as she tightly wrapped her legs around my back. That particular action caused me to come deep inside of her releasing my cool stream into her hot sheath and while I was enjoying that incredible ecstasy I fiercely bit into her skin opening the vein and allowing her warm blood to flow freely into my waiting mouth. There had never been a more pleasurable sexual experience for me in all of my existence.
She gasped for air as she gripped my hair in her hands, but as she continued to pour into my mouth her grasp began to loosen as she started to lose consciousness; her arms slid sown my back and on to the bed. She was by far the most delicious creature I had ever tasted and the more I drank the stronger I felt, but as her heart began to slow I knew I had to stop. I took just a little more letting it linger in my mouth before swallowing and releasing my teeth. I licked the excess blood from her neck not wanting to waste a single drop of my precious girl, and then I sealed the wound effectively locking my venom inside. As much as I regretted letting her go I moved her limp body from mine placing her on her back and continued to finish the job I started. I took her wrist to my mouth and bit into it allowing more venom to course through her veins. I repeated this action several more times throughout her body and then when I got to my final destination, her ankle, the pain began to kick in for her. I could feel it.
“Bella, this is the last time I will ever hurt you.” I placed my teeth on her skin and repeated my task on last time knowing that I had sealed her fate. She immediately started to thrash, kick and scream. It broke my heart. I put my body on top of hers and tried to hold her still.
“Bella, I love you.” She opened her eyes and stared at me. Her pain was unbearable, not only could I feel it, but I could see it all over her face. She moved her head from side to side.
“It burns … Jasper … make it stop!” She screamed. “Please … it hurts.” She was crying and gasping for air. I sent her a relaxing vibe and she settled down a bit, but even my power wasn’t going to be enough to get her through the next few days pain free. She was still, so I took the opportunity to dress her in the sweats I had put at the foot of the bed earlier in the evening.
She started to cry and moan again and I knew the worst of this was just beginning. I sat up at the top of the bed and pulled her back into my chest tightly wrapping my arms around her body. She tried to break my hold as she fought against my restraint, but I wouldn’t let her go.
“Shh… Bella, I’m here, baby, I won’t leave you.” I tried to take some of the pain from her and she settled down again.
“It hurts … don’t leave… I’m yours…”
“Mine.” I held her tight.
The next few days were pretty much the same. Bella would thrash, kick and ramble and I would hold her as tight as I could and sooth her through it.
“Who are they?” She spoke.
I never left her side and I used my power to its fullest capacity. I only prayed that it was enough and that she would know that I was doing everything I could for her.
Carlisle called several times throughout the change always assuring me that everything seemed to be normal and Bella was experiencing everything she should be.
“The cold ones … super human strength… I know what you are … it doesn’t matter. She pulled at the sheets.
“You don’t want me? Well, that changes things.” She violently kicked her legs.
It seemed that she was talking about things that had happened in her life after we had come into it.
“Jasper will come for me.” She snuggled into me.
By the third day she didn’t seem to need my assistance as much as she seemed calmer on her own.
“Jasper, my life starts today. I love you with all of my heart. Always.” She smiled.
Her incoherent phrases decreased and so did her wild movements. I noticed that her muscles hardened under my touch and she felt more like me. Her body was as hard as stone and her skin was as pale as mine, too. I had done what she had asked; I made her just like me. Of course, I always thought she was strikingly beautiful, but now she was a goddess; extraordinary in every way. I had encountered thousands of vampires throughout my existence, but none were as perfect as she was.
She let out a small, peaceful sigh and I could feel she was no longer in agony. I released her from my hold placing her on her side so that she could face me. I wanted to be the first thing she was when she opened her eyes. She squeezed them tight as she stretched her new body out. I wanted to touch her, but I didn’t want to risk startling her. She slowly opened her eyelids; her face was inches from mine and if it were possible she smelled even better than her human self. She didn’t speak only stared. I didn’t want to overwhelm her so I tried to be patient while she got her bearings.
She continued to stare at me with her fiery red eyes. Luckily, Alice remembered to pack the contacts. I waited a few more seconds, but still she said nothing. What was going on in her head?
It hadn’t occurred to me that she might not even remember me. Did she hate me for the pain I had caused her? Did I fully prepare her for that experience? Did she still want me? Why wouldn’t she talk? I couldn’t take it anymore.
Chapter 33: Chapter 33
“Make me just like you.” I wrapped my legs around his hips causing him to slip as far as he could inside of me. “Make me yours forever…bite me…baby…I’m…I…” I couldn’t think about anything other than Jasper filling me so completely.
He quickly shifted our positions so that he was sitting and I was straddling him. It was just the way we were the last time I had asked him to bite me while we were making love. “Look at me, Bella.” He commanded. “I love you; never forget that.”
As if I ever could. I tried to catch my breath. “I love you, too. Always.”
Jasper was close. I could feel his marble body begin to tighten as it always did just before he let go. He pulled my nightgown up over my head and tossed it to the floor. I shivered as he moved my hair away from my neck and rain his icy tongue along my vein. I knew he was getting ready to bite me, so I wrapped my legs as tight as I could around his back. I wanted to be as close as I could to him. This seemed to put him over the edge and for the very first time I felt his cool venom erupt deep within my core. It was an incredible sensation, the coolness of his fluid mixing with the heat of mine, but one I wouldn’t enjoy for very long because a second later I felt the worse pain of my life as Jasper’s poisonous teeth ripped into my neck. I felt a warm rush of blood flow into his mouth as I gripped his hair. My eyes began to flutter and then I fell into darkness.
When I opened my eyes I was on my back and he was at my ankle caressing it with his fingertips. He looked so conflicted as I am sure he didn’t want to hurt me again. I didn’t remember him separating us. I was burning up as I felt the venom coursing throughout my body. Everything burned.
“Bella, this is the last time I will ever hurt you.” There was more pain. How was I ever going to get through this? He sunk his teeth into my skin one last time and I tried to pull my leg from his grip, but it was no use. “Stop!” I cried, but I knew he couldn’t. I didn’t want him to stop, but I no longer had control of my actions. I closed my eyes tight and thrashed around the bed. Every muscle and joint throughout my body ached; it hurt to stay still just as much as it did to move. I didn’t mean to torture him by yelling out, but the thoughts escaped my lips before I could stop.
“Bella, I love you.” I opened my eyes and followed the sound of his melodic voice. He was on top of me now holding me still. The only part of my body that I could move was my head; I threw it from side to side.
“It burns…Jasper…make it stop!” I screamed for him to help me. “Please…it hurts.” I began to gasp for air and I could see the pain in his face. I didn’t want to be the cause of that pain; I wanted to cry for him. He didn’t deserve to think that this was his fault. I wanted this for him; for us. I began to calm down. That must have been his doing. I could still feel the pain, but it wasn’t as intense. I focused all my energy on Jasper. He was strong, but gentle and so kind and romantic. He was mine.
Oh, God, I was burning again. I started to cry as I felt his arms around me. I tried to break free so that I could turn and look at him. I wanted to tell him it was going to be okay, but he wouldn’t release his hold.
“Shh…Bella, I’m here, baby, I won’t leave you.” I calmed under his touch.
“It hurts…don’t leave…I’m yours.” He needed to know that I wanted this.
“Mine.” He pulled me closer and the coolness of his body was just what I needed against my heated flesh. As long as he was with me I could survive this.
Jasper’s calming vibes would last anywhere from ten minutes to an hour, but then the pain would come back with a vengeance. When that happened I couldn’t manage to fight it and each time when I thought I wouldn’t bear another second Jasper would get control of me and I would relax again. I could hear myself talk, but I’m not sure what I spoke out loud or what was in my head.
I remembered how this all began. I was sitting in the cafeteria with Jessica having lunch, and then I saw them. Five of the most extraordinary people I had ever seen. They were perfect.
“Who are they?” These beautiful people who all seemed to resemble one another in an odd way. They all had the same golden eyes, pale skin and elegant mannerisms. No one seemed to pay much attention to them, but I was intrigued by their differences. I wanted to be just like them.
“The Cullen’s.” Emmett and Rosalie … Jasper and Alice…and Edward. Yes, Edward, he would bring me to my destiny, but first I would have to fall in love with him. I did love him …I loved them all even though there was something very unusual about them.
“The cold ones…super human strength…I know what you are…it doesn’t matter.” I gripped the sheets. It never mattered what they were. I only knew that I was meant to be with them; one of them. But, he didn’t want me anymore.
The forest, no, not here! Why doesn’t he love me? The intense pain inside my burning body moved to my heart now. Why is he leaving me? I want to come, too. What about Alice? I need her. And, Jasper … he wouldn’t hurt me. He didn’t mean to… it was nothing.
“You don’t want me? Well, that changes things.” I kicked my legs hitting the mattress hard. And, then he was gone and I felt nothing but the wind on my face. He just left me standing in the forest all alone. How will I fulfill my destiny?
“Jasper will come for me.” I snuggled into his hard body and immediately felt better. He never let me go; he never would. The pain seemed to be diminishing now as I could no longer feel the venom spreading through my system. I remembered our wedding and how special the day was, how handsome my groom looked, his beautiful vows and my response.
“Jasper, my life starts today. I love you with all of my heart. Always.” That made me smile.
My body felt different; some how better. Nothing seemed to hurt and I felt very well rested. I didn’t feel scared or confused. I knew exactly where I was and what I had become. I opened my eyes and his face was the first thing I saw. He was inches from my own and I could feel his sweet breath on my lips. It was as if I was really seeing him for the first time. He was spectacular. Of course, my human eyes always thought he was beautiful, but now he was god-like. He was so perfect that I was afraid he wasn’t real, but then he spoke and I knew I wasn’t dreaming.
“Bella?” He seemed anxious. “Bella, baby, do you know who I am?”
Wasn’t that a stupid question? Like anyone could forget him. I smiled as I reached out to touch his cheek. My throat was dry, but I managed to get the words out.
“You are my husband.” I smiled at him.
He looked relieved and if it were possible he seemed as if he might cry. “Yes, darlin’, that is exactly who I am.” He pressed my hand to his cheek. “May I kiss you?”
“I’d be offended if you didn’t.”
He slowly leaned in and gently kissed my lips. It was careful, but nice. I giggled.
“What?” He asked.
“Your lips aren’t freezing anymore.” I laughed.
He chuckled. “Yes they are, darlin’, it’s you who is no longer 98.6 degrees.”
I stared at him again. His presence made me weak.
“What is it?” He asked.
“You. I just can’t get over how exceptionally beautiful you are. I mean you were amazing before, but now …” I kissed him, and not as careful as before.
He broke the kiss. “Wow… that was a pretty intense kiss for a girl who just went through the most horrendous pain of her life.”
“I feel really good.” I licked his bottom lip. “Really good.”
He touched my face and I suddenly didn’t have the urge to jump on top of him and do all sorts of wicked things to him. “Hey, you manipulated my lust.” I pouted.
“Bella, we have plenty of time for that. Right now we need to take care of you.”
“But, that would take care of me.” Obviously he didn’t understand that I was intoxicated by the very sight of him. I seemed to have the most basic of urges right now. He must have felt that coming from me too because the next thing I felt was tranquility. Damn empath!
“Now, does anything hurt or feel uncomfortable?” He asked.
“No, well yes, my throat burns. Does that mean I am thirsty?” I didn’t feel hungry, but I wasn’t really sure how I was supposed to feel.
“Yes, your throat will burn when you are thirsty or when you are around humans”
“Ouch, this is how you felt when you were with me?” I put my hand to my throat. ”But, how did you…”
“You will learn to control it and hopefully it won’t take you as long as it took me. I am hoping you will be more like Carlisle or Esme.” He smiled. “Which reminds me, they have called several times throughout your transition. They were very concerned for you.”
“Can we call them and tell them that I am okay?”
“Yes, as soon as we hunt.”
“Hunt?” I didn’t think I was ready for that. “Today?”
“Yes, Bella, it’s instinctual. You will be fine, but I will help you.”
“Okay, but not yet. I can wait. I want to know what you think of me. Am I everything that you hoped that I would be?” I looked down. “I mean you were attracted to my human form, but we didn’t take into consideration how you would feel once I was changed.”
“Silly girl.” He kissed my forehead and then took my face between his stone hands. “You were the most beautiful creature to me then, but now you are a supernatural being. You truly are a one of a kind. Bella, I would love you no matter what you looked like, but I have to tell you that I have never seen anyone more superb then you.”
“Really?” I had always been so ordinary. “Superb?”
“Shall we go to the mirror so that you can see for yourself?”
“No, not yet. I’ll take your word for it.” I didn’t want to move from this bed. I wanted to be as close to him as possible.
“Always so modest. I hope you can eventually learn to see how amazing you really are; inside and out.” He kissed me again. “I love you so much. Thank you for wanting to be with me forever.”
“I love you, too, and thanks for wanting me forever.” I kissed him again and I could fee the desire building from within me again. It overwhelmed me. I ran my fingers through his hair as I pushed myself closer to him. Every little touch was intensified a thousand times over. It was as if I was experiencing everything for the first time. Well, I guess I was. He didn’t try to manipulate my feelings. He let me go with it this time. I swirled my tongue around his mouth. “Hmm….you taste really good.”
He gripped my hips and pulled me as close to him as he could. He thrust his tongue into my mouth as he tangled his fingers into my hair pulling hard, but it didn’t hurt. It felt good. Everything felt so good. We kissed long and deep never needing to stop for air. It was hot. He bit my lip as he pulled my head back changing the angle of the kiss. He worked his hands down my body and slid my tank top up over my breasts; cupping them in his hands. He crawled on top of me stopping to look at my exposed body. “Oh, Bella, you are perfect.” He leaned down and started placing open mouth kisses over my chest and down my stomach. The sensation of his lips on my body was created awareness between my legs. I was aching for him in ways that I never had before. I could feel his erection pressed against my thigh. I needed him; right now. And then suddenly he stopped and rolled off of me. I immediately missed his touch.
“I’m sorry, baby. I should be considering your needs first. We have to get you fed.” He pulled my top back down over my body; always the gentleman.
“Jasper, you’ve been holding out on me. “ I was breathless.
“Bella, you have no idea the restraint I have shown.”
“Show me now.” I moved his hand back to my breast. I wanted vampire sex and I wanted it now.
“Bella, settle down.” He tried to calm me but I anticipated it this time and with my new found speed and strength I flipped him on his back and straddled him in one fluid movement. That was cool; I felt a fantastic rush.
“We can hunt later.” He looked at me in complete shock. “Now I want you to show me how it’s really done. I won’t break.”
He laughed. “No, but I might.” He rubbed his shoulder where I had pushed him down.
“Oh, Jasper I’m sorry. I didn’t realize that I could hurt you.”
“Yes, you will be stronger then me for a short time so please be careful, but I guess it’s only fair that you get to bruise me now.”
I leaned down and kissed his shoulder. “I’ll be careful.” I pressed my lips to his.
“Not too careful.” He nipped my lip as he flipped us so that he was on top. “So, you want me to show you what a vampire can really do?”
I bit my bottom lip and stared into those gorgeous eyes. He was all I would ever need. “Jasper, I don’t ever want this to end.”
“Oh, no, darlin’ this is just the beginning.”
“Always?” I asked.
“Always.” He assured me as he took me into his arms and I knew that’s where I would stay for all of eternity. He was my fate.
***I know no vampire sex yet, but we have a whole other story for that.
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