You'll Be Mine Chapter 6 - Release
***We own nothing not even hot, dark, dominant Jasper who does make an appearance in this chapter…
As I was sitting in front of Carlisle, I was trying to figure out just how I was going to explain to him what it was that I needed to speak with him about. He must have noticed my struggle because he leaned forward in his seat and rested his hands on his desk.
“What’s wrong Edward? I can see that you are bothered by something son. What happened? I thought you were with Bella.”
I turned away from him, “I was with Bella.”
“Okay, so did you two have a fight?”
I nodded, “Yeah we had a fight alright. I messed up big time and I don’t know how I’m going to fix things with her this time.”
“Son, I can’t help if you don’t tell me what happened.” I wish he would just tell me what happened, so I could help him. I hate seeing him like this.
I turned to face him and took a deep unnecessary breath, “So I was at Bella’s house and we started kissing and well I sort of umm, well she only had a towel on and I took the towel off of her and I was touching her and I…”
Thank god he decided to interrupt me because I was surly making a fool of myself. “Edward did you and Bella have sex?”
Okay so they didn’t have sex, what was he trying to tell me? I looked at him for a moment, when it dawned on me. “Did you and Bella explore each others’ bodies?”
He can’t even say what we did not even in his own thoughts. How am I supposed to tell him what we did? How am I supposed to tell him what I did? “I guess that’s one way of looking at it.”
“What do you mean that’s one of looking at it? What exactly happened between you two?”
Ugh, he was going to make me tell him. I sighed, “After I took the towel off, I was kissing her and rubbing her breasts and then I let my hand travel further down and I pushed a finger inside of her and it was great and then she unbuttoned my pants and her hand touched me and I freaked. I jumped up and she started crying and told me to get out.”
Oh god, it’s worse than I thought. How am I supposed to help him fix this? “Edward, I know that you love her. You have to decide what you want. If you want to be with her intimately, than you need to stop running from her; if not then you need to stop leading her on.”
“I do want her intimately. I don’t know why it is so hard. I feel like I lose focus and I’m so scared I’m going to hurt her. I couldn’t live with myself if I was to hurt her.”
“That’s where you’re messing up; you’re already hurting her. Look at it from her point of view, if she got you all hot and bothered and then changed her mind, how would you feel?”
I thought about what he said for a moment. How would I feel if Bella did to me what I did to her tonight? The more I thought about it, the worse I felt. I know what I would be feeling if she did that to me. I would feel like she didn’t want me.
I pinched the bridge of my nose, “I would feel rejected.”
He nodded, “You can’t keep doing this to her Edward. Eventually, you’re going to lose her. All you are doing is pushing her further away.”
“I can’t her lose her, Carlisle. Tell me what to do. Tell me how to fix this.”
“She obviously wants you to make love to her. I think that’s where you need to start. Are you planning on changing her?”
“She wants me to change her.”
“That’s not exactly what I asked you.” Does he not want to change her? If he doesn’t want to change her, I hope he told her. She’ll be devastated. I wouldn’t doubt it if she came to me and asked me to do it.
“I can’t and I won’t end her life, and you won’t either, so get it out of your head.”
He sighed, “You’re living your life and you would be so much happier if you had Bella by your side for all eternity.”
“I can’t damn her to this life. Why can’t you understand that?”
“You want me to understand that? I understand that better then you, but for once consider what she wants and not just yourself.”
“You want me to turn her?” I couldn’t be hearing him right, could I?
“Yes, I want you to turn her. Think about what your decision will do to her. If you tell her that you aren’t going to change her, she will be heartbroken.”
“She may be heartbroken, but she would be alive.” Why didn’t he get this?
“Edward,” he looked very serious. “You need to tell her it’s over. As much as that will devastate her, it will be better for her in the long run. Trust me.”
I nodded and stood up, “I need time to think. I’m going for a hunt; I’ll be back later.” I didn’t wait for him to respond, I ran out of his study and down the stairs. I flung open the door and took off running into the forest.
I ran and ran and ran until I didn’t feel like running anymore. I leaned against a tree and slid down until I was on the forest floor. I put my head on my knees and closed my eyes. If I didn’t change her, I was going to lose her; could Carlisle be right?
I knew that he was right, just like he was right about me being intimate with Bella. I couldn’t push her away. I needed her. I loved her. I had to have her and I would do anything in my power to keep her. I pushed those thoughts aside and stood back up to go for a hunt. I took off running and just as I was about to take down a buck, my phone vibrated in my pocket. I quickly pulled it out and looked at the screen. What would Alice be calling me for right now?
“Edward, what’s going on?” she demanded.
“What are you talking about?”
“I can’t see a future for you and Bella anymore. What have you done?”
“Nothing,” Could my conversation with Carlisle have changed my course with Bella? “I mean I have been conflicted, and we had a fight, but I still love her.”
“Whatever is happening in Forks right now has caused your future with Bella to completely disappear. So, I suggest whatever it is you changed, you need to change it back if you are still planning to spend eternity with her.”
“But, Alice I was just trying to…” Wait, maybe it wasn’t me at all that changed our future. I growled into the phone.
I climbed up to her window and peered in. She was balled up on the bed sobbing uncontrollably. I could feel her sadness and desperation, but the most overwhelming emotion I was getting from her was rejection. Edward had done it again. What was wrong with him? He had this amazingly beautiful woman who not only loved him, but desired him and he couldn’t fulfill her most basic needs. I didn’t like seeing her sad and unfulfilled; it was time I did something about this situation.
I opened the window and quietly slipped inside although it wasn’t as if she was going to hear me over all of that crying. She was curled up in nothing but a towel; her hair was all over the place and her eyes were swollen, but still she was the most exquisite creature that I had ever had the pleasure of laying eyes on. I kneeled down by her face and gently ran my fingers through her tangled locks.
She jumped up and I felt her fear. She stared into my eyes as the shock washed across her face. “Jasper? What are you doing here?”
“I sensed you needed me. I’m here to give you exactly what you want.” I sat on the bed next to her and she pulled her towel closer to her body. She really didn’t need to bother because I intended to have the offending piece of material off of her within a few minutes.
“You have to go.” She said.
“Ah, no, I don’t think so.” I said as I ran my finger down her arm.
“I can’t do this with you.” She explained. “Whatever you’re doing to me has to stop.”
“I haven’t done anything yet and from what I can tell neither have you. I can fix that.”
“What are you talking about?”
“Oh, sugar, I can smell the arousal in this room.”
A disgusted look crossed her face.
“But you know what I don’t smell?” I asked as she looked at me curious for an answer. “Release.”
“You’re vile. Edward would never speak to me that way.” I felt her desire beginning to build. She liked when I talked dirty.
“Maybe that’s your problem. I think you like that kind of talk.”
“No.” she protested but I didn’t sense that she wanted me to leave anymore.
I inched closer to her lips. “You know what else you’re going to like?” I asked as I brushed my lips against hers. “Wrapping your tight pussy around my hard cock.”
She moved away but I grabbed her arm and pulled her back to my lips. She tasted of Edward but I couldn’t bring myself to care. This time when we kissed she didn’t struggle and I didn’t need to manipulate her emotions. I tangled my fingers in her hair and pulled her even closer to my lips. I forced my tongue in her mouth and as I expected she let me have total control. Good girl. I pulled away so that she could breathe.
“Jasper, I…” She couldn’t form a coherent thought.
“Do you want this Bella?” I asked as I pushed her down on the bed and straddled her. “I’m not going to force you, ever.” She needed to understand that the choice would be hers.
I lowered myself to her face. “All you have to do is tell me to stop.” I licked her bottom lip. “I don’t hear anything.” I whispered as I began sucking on her earlobe. She whimpered but still didn’t tell me to stop. I could smell her arousal beginning to pool between her legs. I put my tongue in her ear and swirled it around as I gently blew my cool breath on her skin. She shivered. “I still don’t hear anything.” I moved away from her ear and grabbed a fistful of her hair forcing her to look into my black eyes. Her desire matched mine. “Well? Am I staying?”
I yanked her hair. “Yes, what?”
“Yes, I want you to stay.”
I brought my lips to hers again and kissed her harder than the other times. She moaned into my mouth and I felt her submission. She would do anything I asked, but I would take it slow. She couldn’t handle everything at once although my first instinct was to plunge hard and deep I knew I had to have patience with this willing little girl. It wasn’t like with the other humans back in Texas, no, with them it didn’t matter if I hurt them they were going to die anyway, but not Bella. She would be mine forever.
I pulled away and placed her wrist to my mouth. She gasped, but I smirked. “No, darlin’, I’m not going to bite you. I have other plans for your body.” I glanced down at his ring on her finger; that couldn’t stay. I slid it off and placed it on the nightstand beside the bed. “I will not be reminded that you belong to another when we are together.”
She simply nodded. She didn’t want to be reminded either. I opened her towel to reveal her incredible body to me. It was perfect. I had to get my mouth all over her. I wanted to taste her. I felt her embarrassment creep in as she looked away from me. I took her chin in my hand and forced her to look into my eyes. I sent her a wave of confidence.
She smiled at me and I felt her gratitude. “You are beautiful and I’m going to show you just how much I want you. There’s no reason to be afraid or embarrassed. Tonight I’ll get acquainted with your body and bring you nothing but pleasure.”
“Jasper, I’ve never…” I could feel her embarrassment settle in as the color of her cheeks turned red. “Edward and I don’t…”
“I know that the two of you have never had sex. Is that what you’re trying to tell me?” Didn’t she realize that made her all the more appealing to me? She could be mine in every sense of the word. I started placing soft, open mouthed kisses down her neck as I let my hand explore her stomach and hips. I slowly moved it down her thigh and rested my hand between her legs. Her body quivered under my touch.
She was breathing heavy and the scent of her arousal was making me crazy. A low growled escaped my chest as I let my mouth trail down her body. I stopped to take one of those fantastic breasts into my mouth. I took her taut nipple between my teeth as I pressed my tongue against it. Bella seemed to like the pressure because she twisted her fingers into my hair as she pushed me closer to her. I felt her need for me increase as she arched her back. I moved to the other nipple and repeated my actions. While my mouth kept busy I slide my hand down her stomach and across her hot, wet center.
My cock twitched inside my pants when she moaned, “Jasper.” I knew the chief wasn’t here so I could make her scream my name if I wanted. I licked my way down her stomach and over her belly button. Her skin was so warm and I liked the way it felt against my cold tongue. So many places to taste, but I knew where I wanted to be. I spread her legs open and she tensed as I grazed my teeth against her inner thigh.
“Nothing but pleasure, Bella.” I reminded her. I swiped my tongue just at her entrance, but she tried to close her legs. I deliberately pushed them a part this time and held them firmly in place; I was sure she would have bruises. I was in control and I wanted to taste her. I dipped my tongue a bit further into her dripping wet sex and felt pure bliss. The taste was like nothing I had ever experienced before. It was better than any blood; human or otherwise that had ever past my lips. I could feast on her for hours lapping up every drop of juice she gave to me, but tonight was about testing limits; seeing how her body responded. I noticed as I was teasing her with my mouth her apprehensions about oral sex seemed to disappear. She was more relaxed and seemed to be enjoying it. I lingered between her legs for a few seconds longer before dragging myself back to her lips.
“Bella,” I whispered. “Your pussy is so sweet. I could lick you all night.” I kissed her so that she could taste her fresh arousal on my tongue. Her desire spiked. I smiled at my dirty little girl. She started to squirm underneath me and I could tell she was in desperate need of a release, but I hadn’t made up my mind if I was going to give her one tonight; I wanted to leave her wanting more. My own erection was becoming extremely painful, but I could deal with that. That fact that she was writhing completely naked underneath of me was worth it all, even if I didn’t cum tonight.
“Have I given you enough tonight?” I asked. She looked at me with desperate eyes and I could feel how frustrated she was. I smirked at her. “Patience, my innocent girl.”
She arched her back and thrust her pelvis into my cock. “Oh, Bella, be careful, sugar, or I might not be able to control myself.”
“I don’t want you to control yourself. I’m tired of being brought to the brink and never…” She looked away, but I felt her hesitation.
She looked back and me and I noticed her eyes beginning to fill with tears. “I can’t take it anymore. Why don’t you want me either?”
“What?” Was she out of her fucking mind? If she only knew how many ways I wanted her, and not just physically; I wanted her emotionally, too. I wanted to make her mine for eternity, but I just wasn’t worthy of her. Now she was crying. “Bella, don’t cry. Tell me what you want.”
“I want you to finish what you started. I want to know what it feels like to finish.” She was embarrassed, but I got what she was trying to tell me.
“Is that what you were saying earlier?” Was it possible that my idiot brother never gave this girl a release? “You’ve never had an orgasm?” It was hard to shock me because in my long existence I had seen and heard a lot of shit, but this blew me away.
She was ashamed of her admission, but I didn’t want her to feel shame or embarrassment. I only wanted to give her what she wanted. I attacked her lips and eagerly explored her mouth. I wished that she didn’t need to breathe because I never wanted to separate from her.
She was frantic with need as I slide a finger inside her tight core and began to thrust in and out. Once I felt she was ready I slipped another finger inside of her and picked up the pace. She moaned out my name as she grabbed my bicep. Oh, how I wanted her little hand wrapped around my cock right now, but I knew we would get to that at another time. She began to thrust her hips in rhythm with my fingers and I could feel her orgasm beginning to rise from deep within her. She started to move my arm so that I would pick up the pace. I smiled but gave her what she wanted.
“That’s right my sweet girl you cum for me. You remember who you belong to now.”
“Jasper…” She moaned as her eyes rolled in the back of her head.
“Who do you belong to Bella?”
“You! Oh…I’m…” She let go all over my fingers as she shuddered over and over again. It took her a few minutes to come down and get her breathing back to normal. I gently rolled off of her and pulled her into my chest. I could feel how much calmer and less frustrated she was. I felt a certain satisfaction come over me knowing that I had done that for her.
“Are you okay, sugar?”
“Hmm…I’m better than okay.” She smiled. “But what about you?”
“I’m fine.” I knew what she was asking, but we weren’t ready for that. “Tonight was about you.”
“I’d like to put my sweats on, if that’s okay.”
She was asking my permission; I liked that. “I’ll get them.” I was back within a second with her tank top and shorts. She quickly put them on and got under the covers. I leaned against the wall as I watched her get settled.
She looked up at me and I knew she wanted to ask me something. “You may speak, Bella.”
“I was just wondering if you would…” She trailed off. I would do anything she asked. I only wished I could tell her that.
“What Bella?” I was getting impatient and I didn’t want to turn into that bastard again.
“Could you please stay until I fall asleep?” She bit her bottom lip and really how could I resist that?
I walked toward her and sat down next to her. “I can help you sleep. Would you like that?”
She nodded and I could feel her relief. I pushed the hair from her eyes and sent her a lethargic vibe. “Jasper…”
“Yes, darlin’?” I knew what I wanted her to tell me, but I knew she could never love someone as hideous as me.
“Thank you for tonight,” she said before she drifted off.
It was truly my pleasure. I leaned down and pressed my lips to hers. I stayed a few minutes longer, but before I left I pulled the covers up and tucked her in. I looked at my sleeping angel one last time before I jumped out of the window and ran into the night. I needed to think. What had I done?
I made my way to the stream just by the house. I dove into it to rid myself of Bella’s scent. I didn’t have the energy to deal with both Carlisle and Edward tonight. As I swam up and down the channel I tried to clear my mind, but my thoughts kept wandering back to Texas. I headed there the night I tried to attack Bella, and I was there for a few days before meeting up with Peter, but I had no recollection of what I did those first few days.
I got glimpses of the forest and hunting, but it’s as if I was watching someone else. I saw a shadowy figure coming toward me, but I couldn’t make out a face. I didn’t struggle or run, so I must not have felt threatened. I couldn’t pick up any emotions or even a scent coming from this dark figure. I swam up to the surface of the stream, and as quickly as that flashback came to me, it was gone.
What the fuck? I was a vampire and I shouldn’t be losing chunks of time. The strange thing was I hadn’t even realized that I was in Texas for a few days before finding Peter and Charlotte until just now. I couldn’t shake the feeling that something happened to me there, but what?
***Hmm… could there be an explanation for our Darksper?
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