You'll Be Mine Chapter 3 - Who Do I Want?
Who Do I Want?
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Edward was just staring at me and I didn’t know what to say. It was a dream; I had no control over it. It wasn’t my fault and I was sure he would understand that. Yea, right. I just had an erotic dream about his estranged brother taking my virginity hours after he and I came closer than we ever had before to making love. Sure he’ll understand.
“Bella?” He asked. “Are you okay?”
“I, well, I had a dream and I’m not sure why …”
“It’s okay.” He said.
“It is?” Wow, that was easy.
“I’ll never let him hurt you.”
“Hurt me?” I asked.
“Yes, it’s natural that you would dream about Jasper attacking you since that was exactly what he tried to do to you the last time we saw him.”
“Jasper attacking me? Oh, right.” I hated lying to him, but I saw no sense in hurting him. I had no intentions of acting on that dream so if Edward never found out about it the better off we would all be.
“I can tell him to leave the house if you are uncomfortable. It’s fine if you’ve changed your mind and you don’t want him with us.” He pulled me closer to him.
“No, don’t ask him to leave.” Actually, I wanted to be close to Jasper. What was wrong with me? I had Edward and we were planning a future together. Why would seeing Jasper after all of these months trigger such a strong and strange reaction?
“The sun will be up in a little while. Do you want to get up and come back to the house with me?” He asked.
He wanted to take me to the house where Jasper was. “Yes, I would love that.”
He smiled at me and I’m sure he was curious as to why I would be so excited. I was curious myself. “Okay, you get ready and I’ll run home and get my car. Why don’t you tell Charlie you are spending the day with me?”
“Okay,” I smiled. “Hurry back.”
“Speed’s on my side, love.” I looked into his golden eyes and remembered why I loved him so much.
“Edward,” I said. “I’m sorry that we fought last night about the whole marriage thing.”
“It’s forgotten.” He said. “We don’t have to talk about it.” He kissed me softly on the lips and headed for the window. “I’ll be back soon.”
I nodded. That was the problem. We did have to talk about it. We needed to set a date and make it happen. I wanted to be turned and I wanted it soon. I would give him to my graduation, but that was it. He would marry me and I would be turned one way or another. But, now I needed to focus on how to get these new thoughts of Jasper out of my head. I was sure I dreamt of him because of what happened between Edward and me. I felt rejected and I was all keyed up from not getting that much needed release. Jasper was on my mind and I subconsciously put him in Edward’s place. Yes, that was it. I wanted Edward not Jasper. Problem solved.
The only thing with that is I didn’t feel like the problem was solved. I felt like there was a part of me that truly wanted Jasper. What could that possibly mean? I knew I thought about him quite often while he was gone, but I just assumed it was because I felt guilty for what happened. If I never would have cut my finger on my birthday, he would have never had to leave. It was ultimately my fault, whether anyone wanted to admit it or not.
So now, I had to figure out what to do. How would I get these thoughts to go away? The more important question, did I want these thoughts to go away? What if the answer was no? What did that mean? Does that mean that I ultimately want my dream to come true? Did I want Jasper? Ahh! I wish I could just figure this out. I couldn’t dwell on it, but I couldn’t make it go away either. What was I going to do?
She was downstairs. I could smell her all the way up in my room. What I wouldn’t give to have her hot, little body in my bed right now. Thinking about the things I could do to her, and all the ways I could make her scream my name made me hard. Edward was wasting her; she needed a real man to show her what her body was capable of. I decided to go downstairs and stir things up.
They were sitting together on the couch watching television. Edward turned to me as soon as I walked in the room. He wasn’t happy to see me. Bella smiled the sweetest smile as she muted the TV. She was happy to see me. How did I get so lucky?
“Hey, Jasper, how are you?’ She asked.
“Fine, thank you.” I said as I sat down on the chair across from them. “What are you guys up to?”
“We’re spending a quiet day together.” Edward said.
“Oh, that sounds fun. Bella, how do you stand all of this excitement?” I smirked at her and I felt her amusement. Edward was not amused; no, he was angry. He studied me for a moment.
I want to fuck her Edward, hard and fast, in your bed.
“I see you still can’t hear my thoughts.” I said.
“No,” he said. “Carlisle thinks that because of whatever you have been doing these past few months your thoughts are too dark for me to access. You’ve taken your mind to a dangerous place.”
“You spoke to Carlisle about me?” I asked. “He knows that I’ve slipped?”
“You’ve done more than slip.” He snapped. “You chose to feed off humans for six months and now for some reason you’ve come back here to bother us.”
“Edward,” Bella said. “Stop it.”
She was defending me to lover boy. I liked that. “Where is the rest of this family?”
“Carlisle, Esme, Rose and Emmett are in Alaska.” He informed me.
“Carlisle had an opportunity to teach at the medical school at the university, so Rose and Emmett enrolled there.”
“And you stayed behind?”
“I didn’t want to leave Bella. She’s almost done school and then we plan to join them.”
Bella forced a smile, but I could feel that she didn’t like that idea.
“Would you like to know where Alice is?” He asked.
I really didn’t. No one had ever hurt me the way she did and I didn’t think I was ever going to recover from that pain. “I don’t want to talk about Alice.”
“She’s in Paris trying her hand at a fashion school.”
I didn’t say anything, but that somehow suited her. She never belonged in Forks to begin with.
“I have her number if you want to call her.” Bella offered.
“Are you dense?” I snapped. “I said I didn’t want to talk about her.”
“Don’t you talk to her that way.” Edward growled.
“It’s okay, I shouldn’t have said anything.” She put her head down and I felt her hurt. She had been nothing but nice to me and I hurt her.
Fuck, why did I do that? “Bella, I’m sorry, it’s just that Alice is a sore subject for me and I don’t want to think about her at all.”
She nodded but she still wouldn’t look at me.
“Come on, love, I need to go to the grocery store if you’re eating dinner here.”
“Edward, I’m kind of tired. Could I stay here and take a nap?” She asked.
Why was she asking his permission? If she wanted to be submissive, I certainly had other ways we could play.
“Oh, that’s right you really didn’t sleep well last night.” He said.
“Disturbing dreams Bella?” I asked.
“Shut up!” Edward said.
“What? It’s only natural that someone as frustrated as Bella would have trouble sleeping.”
“Frustrated?” Edward asked.
“Jasper please stop picking at Edward. I’m too tired to break the two of you up” She stood up.
“Bella I can’t leave you here with him.” I felt his uncertainty of me.
“What do you think I’m going to do to her?” I asked. “I’m not going to try and go for her jugular.” I had other plans for her.
“Fine, Edward.” She said and I felt her annoyance. “I’ll go to the store with you.”
“No, Bella,” I said. “I’ll go for a run.”
“Jasper, you shouldn’t have to leave your home because of me.” She said. She was so damned considerate.
“This is your home, too.” Edward said.
“Edward, go to the store and I’ll go for a run.” I headed for the door and hit the ground running straight to the forest. I needed to figure out what was going on. What did I want from her? Peter’s words constantly played in my head. Soul mate, he had called her. Could she really be? How could she ever want me when she had Mr. Perfection by her side? If she knew the things I had done she would be repulsed. All those lives I had taken and those women in Texas; the way I had used them, manipulated them into giving me what I had wanted and then how I had ended their lives. I felt no remorse for the past six months and felt no shame in wanting Bella the way I did.
She wasn’t my soul mate I thought as I headed back toward the house. She was just something I wanted and had to have and I wouldn’t stop until I had her. I quietly walked into the house careful to shut the door without making any noise. I didn’t want her to know I was back. I would just slip into her room and watch her sleep for a few minutes. I needed to come up with a plan. I would just gage her emotions for the next few days and try to get a lock on how she felt about me. I walked up the steps and headed for her door, but I knew she wasn’t in there. What the fuck, I smiled as I walked down the hall to my room. I opened the door and found her sitting on the edge of my bed. She was startled by my presence, and I could feel her anxiety. I moved toward her and sat down next to her so close that our arms were rubbing against one another.
“I knew you would be back.” She whispered as she looked down at the floor.
“Look at me when you talk to me.” I instructed her.
Her face shot up and I felt her shock, but she was now staring directly into my eyes.
“Were you waiting for me?” I asked as I trailed my fingertip down her cheek bone and across her lips. Her desire spiked and I smiled. “What can I do for you?”
She swallowed hard. “I just wanted to make sure you were doing okay here.”
“That’s very nice of you.” I said as I ran my fingers through the ends of her long, brown hair. I couldn’t seem to keep my hands off of her. She was perfect and I wanted to worship every inch of her…slowly.
She jumped up and tried to casually distance herself from me. I got up and stood in front of her before she even realized I had moved. She was leaning against the wall so I placed my hands on either side of her body. She smelled so good that I had to control the urge to lick her lips. Her heart was beating faster than it should that I was certain of, but I didn’t feel her fear. “You’re not afraid of me?”
“No.” She said.
“Silly little girl.” I said as I placed my lips to her neck. She held her breath as she shivered from my cold lips.
“Jasper, please don’t.” She begged. I felt confusion, but still no fear.
“Don’t what?” I said as I gently brushed my lips down her neck.
“Don’t bite me.” She whispered as she leaned into me. Her mouth was saying one thing, but her body seemed to be screaming another.
“Are you sure?” I asked as I sucked the skin over her collarbone. She tasted better than I could ever have imagined and it made me wonder what other places of her body would taste like. I released her skin from my mouth and looked into her eyes.
“What are you doing to me?” She asked incoherently.
“Nothing you don’t want, apparently.”
“I don’t want this.” She quickly ducked under my arm, but I grabbed her hand before she could walk out.
“You came to me.” I reminded her.
“To make sure you were okay.”
“You could’ve done that when Edward was home, but instead you got him to leave us here alone. You’re almost as good as I am at manipulation.”
“I have to go.” She tried to break away from my hold, but of course she couldn’t.
“Would you like to see how my power works?” I heard the garage door open and Edward pull in.
“Please, he can’t find me in here.” Now she was scared.
“Why are you afraid of him?” I asked. The front door opened and he walked in.
“Please.” She whispered. I released her hand and she quickly ran out of the room and down the stairs.
I lie back on the bed and put my hands behind my head. I needed to calm myself down. What was it about her that made me want her so much? She wanted me too, I felt that, but it was going to be hard to convince her of her true feelings. She was in love with Edward that I couldn’t deny, but she had feelings for me too. I could work with that.
As I was lying there I kept getting these images of Bella under me, riding me, or me fucking her from behind. I could see myself thrusting my dick into her. I could hear her moaning my name and feel her tight warmth wrapped around me. I closed my eyes and shook my head trying to rid myself of the images, but no matter how hard I tried, I was only able to see her.
What was I going to do? Do I try to steal her from Edward? Do I take what’s rightfully mine? Well, rightfully mine according to Peter. I was brought out of my thoughts when I felt fear, anger, sadness, and frustration.
The fear, anger, and sadness were coming from Bella and the frustration was coming from Edward. What the fuck was going on? I jumped out of bed knowing that I had to get to her. I had to protect her. I had this uncontrollable urge to save her, but what was I saving her from?
Was she afraid of Edward? I ran downstairs and found her crying and him pinching the bridge of his nose. I glared at him and he looked up at me and sighed. I walked up to him and got right in his face. “What the fuck did you do her, you son of a bitch?”
Bella came over to me and touched my arm. I turned to look at her and she shook her head, “Jasper, please not right now. I don’t have it in me to break the two of you up. I just want to go home.”
Edward turned to her and said, “Come on I’ll take you home.”
She narrowed her eyes and him and wiped her tears away roughly, “No, Edward, I don’t want you to take me home. Jasper, can you bring me home?”
“Of course darlin, I’ll bring you home.” Edward growled at me, probably because of the endearment I used, but I didn’t give a fuck. He had Bella scared, angry, and sad, so why should I give a shit about how he felt?
Bella turned and walked towards the door. She opened it and just as she was about to walk out, Edward tried to stop her, “Wait, I don’t want you to leave mad.”
She turned back to him, “I don’t want to talk about it right now. You made it quite clear how you feel about things.”
He walked towards her, but stopped when she held up her hands. “Bella, you don’t understand.”
She cut him off, “You’re absolutely right. I don’t understand and I don’t want to try to understand you right now. Come on Jasper, I’m ready to go.”
The tears had started flowing again and she tried to stop them, but it was a futile attempt. She climbed in my car and I ran around to the driver’s side. I started the car and took off towards her house. She was silent, but I had to know what happened.
“What happened back there?”
She shook her head, “I don’t really want to talk about it.”
“Bella listen to me, I could feel your fear and I want to know what you’re afraid of.”
She sighed, “I’m just afraid that he isn’t going to change me and that he’ll end up leaving me. I know it’s stupid, but I can’t help it. I keep thinking that if he was going to change me, he would have done it by now.”
I looked into those sad, pretty brown eyes and knew that I would change her in a heartbeat if she asked me to. I would do anything she asked of me. Stop it! What the hell was I doing? I had to get her to do what I wanted, first and it appeared Edward was making that very simple for me.
I pulled up in her drive and I got out of the car. I walked around to her side just as she was climbing out of the car. We walked up to her door and she smiled, “Thank you for bringing me home. I think I’m just going to get some sleep.”
Like I was really going to just leave, knowing that I could have a few minutes alone with her. I knew Edward wouldn’t come over now, so it wasn’t like he would interrupt anything between us.
I opened the front door and followed her inside. I felt her uncertainty and I’m sure it was because she didn’t know if she should be alone with me.
“Um, well, thanks again for taking me home.” She bit her bottom lip, and fuck if I didn’t feel like a teenager bringing his date home
“It was my pleasure, sugar.” We stood in the door way for a few awkward minutes, but then her cell began to ring. She reached inside her pocket, but I grabbed her arm. “Don’t answer that.”
“If I don’t he’ll just come over here.”
I took the phone from her. “Hello.” I said.
“Jasper, what the hell?” Edward said. “Put her on the phone.”
“She doesn’t want to talk to you.” I said and smiled at her.
“Where is she?” He said.
“Don’t worry,” I chuckled. “She’s still alive.”
“Jasper!” I could sense his panic over the phone.
“She’s just upset with you. Give her time. Don’t come here now, it will only upset her more.” I winked at Bella.
“Then you get away from her and come home. I swear if you’re not back here in…”
I cut him off, “Relax, I’m leaving now. I’ll tell her you said goodnight.” I flipped the phone shut.
“Thanks, I’m too mad to deal with him now.” She said. “I guess you better go before he comes looking for you.”
“What, you’re not going to invite me up to your bedroom?” I smirked at her.
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